[kmyers80]

I told I was stable about a month ago and now I have been weighed down with depression for the past week or so. I start out fine and then boom the afternoon hits and I am down in the dumps. Then this leads to a cry fest and pity party almost every evening.

I am fairly new to Bipolar II (maybe rapid cycling) but this can't be what life is for a Bipolar person. Is it always such a struggle everyday?

I figure my meds need to be adjusted (going to p-doc this week) and I go to therapy once a week. I am impatient person and I just want to feel better.

Sorry to rant, but I just need to talk to people who actually understand what I am going through.

[Detach]

Yes, sounds like meds need adjusted as well as perhaps thought patterns need monitored by you, such as: are you thinking of the past and future more then the "present" moment?

In "this" moment what are you thinking? Try very hard to see if your thoughts are relevant to what is currently happening? or is your mind wandering beyond the "now" in search of problems.

I find that depression that is not apparent in the morning or early afternoon is because we have not let our minds run amok yet, but as the day/night wheres on.. the "story of me" becomes so depressing do to negative thinking that it depresses us.

No doubt you have a chemical imbalance...I'm not minimizing that issue, but thinking beyond the now is destructive. I know, I've done it plenty of times when I've been totally and completely unconscious of what my own mind was doing to me.

[~Christina]

Dijmart ... what a great way of looking at things !

Kmyers80 ... Dijmart has some great ideas ( she always does

Im sure many people will be posting on this thread and giving you more great advice ..Im personally a wreck right now but ill give you a big (((((HUG))))
Try and be kind to yourself ...