Another crash.....

Why is normality so fleeting? So the wheels have fallen off again I thought I was living in normality (ignoring warning signs that things were starting to go downhill) then I ended up with a weekend on call for work, crying my head off at everything that went slightly wrong.... I have recovered slightly with my 2 days off work but now I have 2 papers that need major revision in the next 2 weeks so I have that stress as well as the stress of work. It's just too much at the moment. I want to bury myself in my covers and sleep the world away.

On the plus side, I've been proactive about getting help - I rang my pdoc and we upped my antidepressant, and I have set up 2 different appointments to try and find a new T. (I need a new one because we moved away from my old city so my old T, who was awesome, is now 3 hours away ) I have also been steadfastly avoiding the temptation to go back to bed and hide, my dogs are helping by getting me outside to play...

((black pup)))))

Keep posting. I'll be around.

I know what you mean about the normalcy being so fleeting. I also feel you on the therapist thing. I also moved recently and have been trying to find a new T. Very hard when you really like and miss your old one

(((((BlackPup)))))

I hope you find a good therapist as soon as possible. Hang in there, and I hope you're feeling better soon!

Yeah I've been feeling like that a lot recently. Been staying upbeat and positive then last night I started cycling again out of nowhere. And I am also on top of medication and what not, I don't know what it was. I think more than anything it was just a random outlet of depression/self-doubt/hopelessness or something. But I hear you are saying, it seems so easy to just lost that sense of habitual normal living.

Black Pup just because you were feeling overwhelmed while being on call does not mean you are headed for disaster. I work on call and some weekends I get overwhelmed and am afraid every time the phone rings, then I feel better the next time I work. You are talented! Don't give up.
Can you postpone the deadline on the papers at all, to minimize your stress?

BlackPup. Definitely had some work spans like that (and the never knowing when the phone will ring bit too...). Ugh, they're rough, especially when you're not feeling well, but you made it through! Glad you found the next couple of days brought some recovery, even if it was only a little bit. How are you doing today?

Yea for you being proactive!!! Making the calls, appointments, med adjustments, resisting the lure of the "cave", getting out with the dogs!

doing ok today but still have an underlying anxiety. At least work was quiet today.
Very tired as well, can't wait to go home and sleep.
On the new T subject, I have appointments with 2 new Ts to try them out.

Hugs to all of you who are feeling crappy too. Hope it doesn't last and normality comes and stays for us all.

Home now - but home alone and not feeling all that good... Want hubby to be home but he won't be home until late.

Another bad day at work....
Don't know what to do...

(((((BlackPup)))))

Hang in there, and please keep posting! We are here to listen.

So sorry you're struggling my friend. Please keep us posted... XOXO

works over for the week so thats a good thing.
really tired at the moment and just want to sleep. but I have 2 papers to correct and one is due next monday. I don't know what the reviewers are asking and I don't know what to do. Have emailed supervisor but he is on his way to Jakata so that won't help...
also had a fight with hubby last night....
generally things just suck at the moment.
have counselling this monday - hopefully that helps.
thanks for letting me whinge....

I'm doing better now I've had some days off work. Back to work tomorrow but it should be ok.
Thanks again for all your support and letting me vent.

Blackpup ..
Glad your feeling better ! Its amazing how getting some rest can make such a huge differance !

Venting here is usally the best thing .. just knowing you will be heard and others know exactly how you feel ,,makes all the differance

Blackpup, I'm glad to hear your feeling a little better. I really hope it continues!!

Glad you're feeling better, BlackPup!
Totally agree with what morethingswrong said.

Thanks guys your support means heaps
Overdid it at work yesterday and feeling terribly tired today. One day till the weekend. YAY!!!