[jlock4507]

I think I may be going through a mixed episode, but am not sure. I am very irritable, agitated, anxious, and yet I am tired, have that feeling like I could cry at the drop of a pin. I feel wound up, like I can't sit still, yet I feel like I don't want to leave my apartment. I feel like I could cry, but I can't. I want to scream because I feel like I am moving in fast forward, but not going anywhere. The smallest things get me fired up, I feel it inside, but don't show it. I don't know if that makes any sense, but that's the best I can describe it...when I talk either i am talking so fast people can't understand me, or am talking slow and forget my train of thought...i kind of feel stupid, i keep forgetting everything, and when people talk to me, i stare at them, but the words seem to go through me, I can't concentrate on anything they are saying, just nod my head, chuckle here or there so they think i am listening, i repeat myself, because i forgot I told somebody that already....i feel like a complete idiot right now.....

[alwaysrejoice]

You are not alone. I just had ECT so feeling like this might be due to that, but you are very close to describing how I feel. I'm scared. My husband asked me to go to Ohio to meet up with some of his old Marine friends this weekend and I panicked. I don't think I can really do it. I hope he understands. I hope he goes without me and doesn't stay home because of me.

[jlock4507]

Originally Posted by alwaysrejoice

You are not alone. I just had ECT so feeling like this might be due to that, but you are very close to describing how I feel. I'm scared. My husband asked me to go to Ohio to meet up with some of his old Marine friends this weekend and I panicked. I don't think I can really do it. I hope he understands. I hope he goes without me and doesn't stay home because of me.

what is ect?

[alwaysrejoice]

Shock therapy.

[Travelinglady]

jlock, my former pdoc used to say I was having "mixed episodes" when I was meeting with him sometimes. I recall that I was actually feeling "down," but yet I was joking and carrying on.

Whatever is happening, I suggest you get in touch with your psychiatrist or therapist very soon. You certainly seem to be struggling, and I want you to feel better!

[jlock4507]

Originally Posted by alwaysrejoice

Shock therapy.

what is it supposed to help with?

[expressiveone]

sounds like a mixed episode to me....are you thinking of a million things at once?? is it hard to focus on things such as tv or reading a book? are you having negative thoughts? or are u just plain agitated? if you answered yes to any of these, I have experienced them in a mixed episode. I hope you manage to find a way to feel better sooner rather than later. do you have a pdoc?

[Lauru]

Originally Posted by jlock4507

I think I may be going through a mixed episode, but am not sure. I am very irritable, agitated, anxious, and yet I am tired, have that feeling like I could cry at the drop of a pin. I feel wound up, like I can't sit still, yet I feel like I don't want to leave my apartment. I feel like I could cry, but I can't. I want to scream because I feel like I am moving in fast forward, but not going anywhere. The smallest things get me fired up, I feel it inside, but don't show it. I don't know if that makes any sense, but that's the best I can describe it...when I talk either i am talking so fast people can't understand me, or am talking slow and forget my train of thought...i kind of feel stupid, i keep forgetting everything, and when people talk to me, i stare at them, but the words seem to go through me, I can't concentrate on anything they are saying, just nod my head, chuckle here or there so they think i am listening, i repeat myself, because i forgot I told somebody that already....i feel like a complete idiot right now.....

In a word, yes. What you are describing sounds like a mixed episode. I just got out of one myself. Had to tweak my meds to do it.

[~Christina]

Sounds like a mixed episode to me ... Been there doing it right now I get this way to often but im still trying to find a good combo of medication..

Definatly talk to your Pdoc or T.. Best to grab the bull by the horns before it goes on any longer ...

Good Luck ~

[Travelinglady]

jlock, ECT or Electro-Convulsive Therapy is used for severe depression in the U.S., depression that hasn't been able to be managed with meds. However, I've heard it can be the first-line treatment for bad depression in some other countries.