Unreliable Brain

I went to judo tonight. Been going 2 or 3 times a week since I started up again. Last Saturday, I left during the advanced class because my brain went "we can't do that" when they said we were to do a runnIng jump/roll 3 feet up. Not like me. Id do whatever i was told. Today I just got exhausted. My body said "go home". Before that, the guy leading the class said "this is for Jennifer. She needs it.". Well the Zyprexa subdued the anger and tears but it also makes me apathetic in general. That wasn't the only example. He seemed unusually stern at me. But I just did what he said anyway.

Anybody else fel tired and apathetic on Zyprexa ?

Sometimes my brain works and others I forget words and even concepts with which to describe a word I can't remember! I just sit or stand there with my brain in space elsewhere. A blank- totally.

Plus I stutter and speak with foreign accents - slightly but there. Goes away, obviously.

I found that some of my symptoms are from Zyprexa including nausea, dizziness, headache, Increased sensitivity to sunlight.

It's working better this morning. I sometimes feel nervous but only on my brain.

I actually liked Zyprexa, BUT, I was only on it for 5 weeks, trying out Latuda right now.

Nobody else's brain just shuts off? I go flank for words or whole ideas daily. It's annoying!

Haha yes Moose, my brain on zyprexa umm what brain?? That about sums it up. If you think about antipsychotics as being major tranquilizers which they are, it puts things in perspective.

I hope you are doing alright, glad you are still going to judo and all that good stuff!

Since I was just diagnosed as Bipolar this year altho suffered all my life. Im currently on yet another Med change .

As Anika said most meds for bipolars are tranquilizers ..

I honestly feel like I dropped out of school in 3rd grade .. I no longer feel even remotely intelligent .. I often forget what I did an hour ago let alone yesterday ..

I see many threads on here Id like to respond too, but I type something out and it seems like such a childish response .. So I backspace and delete all

Wishing you some Peace !

(((((morethingswrong))))) Your post have never seemed childish. They're supportive & caring, it doesn't have to be a long life story or educational post. I just enjoy seeing anybody clicking on the "thanks" icon thingy to anything I've written.. In fact I prefer shorter post only because I am ADHD & on those page long post it's hard for me to be patient & stay focused.

As hard as it is, try & give this new med a little time. I am 10 yrs older than you & was in your shoes 10 yrs ago. It did take several tries & combos but it's worth it, still little tweaks here & there. There are still ups & downs, stress aggravates everything, fibro, ect...

Do I have cognitive issues, yes I do. For me I think it's a combo of the meds & just bipolar itself. One of the few blessings about getting older is that you just don't care or get as worked up about that kind of thing as I used to.
Take good care, try & get some rest.

Heh, I had a fight with the boyfriend over a cognitive blip this afternoon. He sent me an email with a link to an article and when he asked me later if I read it, I did but since there was a single word I couldn't remember, I panicked and couldn't remember what the article was about at all for a couple of minutes. He thought I was lying to him. I swear I used to have a short-term memory, but these days I'm lucky if I remember something you said to me five minutes ago. It's making me worried about my plans to go back to school, to be honest.

I don't think it's just Zyprexa though, my brain fog comes from Seroquel but even then I can't blame it entirely on meds.

I have a hard time finding the right words when I'm depressed - nothing to do with meds, just seems to be that when I'm down my brain is too slow to retrieve from my full vocabulary, so it goes to the second grade edition.

And then I'm constantly stalling out in the middle of a sentence, forgetting the words I meant to use, and irritating the bejeebers out of my poor hubby. Then I'll jump back to a topic we were talking about 5 minutes ago, and next I'll fast-forward to something I meant to talk with him about but had forgotten that I hadn't mentioned, etc... It's frustrating when it feels like I can't even hold a normal conversation.

Maybe it's true that these drugs eliminate mania through brain tranquilizer ion and that's why we feel like our IQs have been cut in half.

Thank-you AniManiac Depression, turned my brain to mush. I totally agree with you, nothing to do with the meds. I can almost hold an intelligent conversation now, but, I do still trip up, just better at recovery!

Thanks Kindachaotic ! You made me smile...the first in a few days ))

Im begining to see by all the posts im certainly not alone ... I definatly have cognative issues that has gotten alot worse .. I saw my T today and him and I discussed it .. he reassured me that altho its typical for bipolars to feel this way and he said its more common during med changes ( which im dealing with)

Moose .... I completly understand about " your brain just clicking off" its so damn annoying.

Heres hoping we all get just the right meds and tweaks done so we all are feeling more clear ..

Thanks to everyone who has posted the information has helped me and hopefully will help me let up on the self loathing and self hatred I deal with all the time .

Wishing you all a Good nite

I know it's not funny but.....

I can't help think of the old commercial - this is your brain on drugs : with the egg in the frying pan. Could be - this is your brain on Bipolar.

I've thought the same thing, Anika!

Anika !!! hahahhhahhhahhahhahha so sad,,,,,,, yet so funnnnnnnnny and I honestly beleive your correct !

Maybe we should all order pancakes instead of eggs??

http://en.wikipedia.org/wiki/Olanzapine

Do not like what I've read!

This is exactly why even tho I have been told I need antipsychotics for life I refuse to Do so. They scare the crap out of me personally. I will take them for an acute episode or for psychosis but not for life. Just my way of doing it, but I am def weary of these particular meds.

P.S. I am not suggesting anyone go off their meds

I like what they do just not the so sleepy and hungry part.