Today

Nope not any better. Got to sleep at 5 am, got up at 7 sent kids to school, back to bed, up at noon, swept the floor. Back to bed 2 pm and I guess I could get up and take out the garbage and throw sone laundry in. Only cause I have to. I have yoga at 7 which at the moment I am dreading. I'm in so much pain, every joint is stiff, aching and just plain painful. Still have a headache.

I have absolutely no motivation to do anything but sleep. I'm getting really sick of this. I've stopped crying since that's all I did yesterday. I don't know what to do. The pain thing is definatly not helping but my gp has never come up with any answers. Can't help feel like your failing when your in bed all day.
Everyday I tell myself tomorrow will be different, I'll get up early, I'll do this and this and this and tomorrow never comes.

I'm just whining, yes I know this.

At least you're not crying! It's an improvement, right? I get headaches every time I have one of those long hard crying spells. Usually sleep helps, though if I cry myself into sheer exhaustion, then I often wake up with a headache too.

Hopefully the yoga will help with the pain. Depression can cause aches and pains, maybe that's the cause? In any case, take good care of yourself - maybe a hot bath would help with the stiffness?

((((Anika))))

Let's see...
1. Not much sleep. No hope of much.
2. Lots of pain. No answers in sight.

I wish I could believe that whining helped, even a little bit. I am so sorry.

Roadrunner

Oddly the yoga seems to make the pain worse. It's not a depression thing, it come in cycles as well with the headaches. Awful for months then clears up, then returns. It does get worse when the weather is cold or wet. I was tested for celiac, ANA levels checked for arthritis, x-rays, fibromyalgia ect. The only thing that has helped is Cortizone injections. I also have digestive problems that cycle at the same time. . It's awesome!!! Haha.

It's ok just gotta get my mind over it. Good idea Ani, maybe I'll have a hot radox bath before hand. here's hoping tomorrow will treat us both better!

((( Anika )))
I wish I could snap my fingers and make you pain and all that bother you go away..

If it were me Id ,,Just take it easy ,,give myself the rest of the day to not "worry " about my lack of motivation .. I know we are are super sensitive to any little change and we all worry too me ( I know I do) ..

Sooooooooo... be kind to yourself and just give yourself a big ole break and know im sending gentle hugs light and love your way .

Hoping so too, Anika!

Hang in there girl. Believe me I feel ya on the aches and pains part. They put me in a terrible mood when they get bad. but i just try to grin and bear it and move on.

Hope things clear up sooner than later

Thanks guys .... Muah!

Today I feel a little better, sun is actually shining and blue skies wth??

I totally sucked at yoga, I actually had to leave the room for a bit. Between blacking out and feeling like I was gonna get sick. I tried to stay in the room and get it together. But there is something about the 105 degree temp 40 % humidity that I just couldn't. I hate having to leave the room. My instructor suggested I back off a bit on the standing series, she said she can see it on my face when I'm about too drop. However, she did say she could tell I am very dedicated and focused, so if I can just get the blacking out under control!

That made me feel good, as I do give 100%. I thought about it after and realized I only ate a piece of toast all day. So we'll see if my appetite doesn't improve than this AD may not be for me. Also I spent a good part of my sleep grinding my teeth, in which my bf kept waking me up. This happened when I was on celexa too. I tried a night guard but I continually spat it out.

Today I am setting zero expectations for myself. Haha exept I'll get dressed.

Only a piece of toast all day?!? No wonder you're blacking out! That should be easy to get under control, right? I used to black out when I was a kid because I'm so hypoglycemic. Now it usually only happens due to "vasovagal response" i.e. fast drop in blood pressure - usually shock.

Ya Ani I have really low blood pressure. I'm sure that doesn't help. Well I am trying to work on the anorexia. It hard but I usually make a bigger effort on my yoga days. As in one whole meal. The med certainly isn't helping. I'm really hoping it will straighten out.

I know one whole meal isn't enough but it's taken me a while to work my way up that. I have put on some weight from yoga and I know it's healthy muscle weight but it still makes me feel anxious. I'm not there yet.

My doctor told me that mouth gaurds take weeks to get used to and until then you will keep spitting it out. Just keep putting it back in

(((Anika))) I'm sorry it's so hard for you - anorexia is one of those things I genuinely can't understand, I think mostly because the hypoglycemia makes it impossible for me to function at all without eating frequently. It just makes me really sick really fast if I don't eat every few hours.

Keep working at it - healthy lean body mass is sexy!

I hope you're feeling better! Sounds like you've had a lot to deal with the last few days. Anorexia is really hard. I hope you have help with that.

I hope they can find out what is causing your pain so it goes away.