[Sheba976]

Hello all. I started waking up in the morning with finger and toe numbness. This started a few weeks ago. My fingers are getting worse. I can barely feel my fingertips typing. I also get a burning or pain kind of feeling. I also had to call off from work one day because I had a "splash" of vision loss in the right side of my visualize field. The next day I woke up seeing halos. Now my feet hurt when I get up out of bed in the morning! So I went to my primary and she ordered a brain MRI. They found seven non-specific lesions in my brain but it could be demylination which the most likely cause is Mutiple Sclerosis. I have to eventually see a neurologist and get another brain MRI and cervical spine mri with contrast to identify more lesions.

Well fortunately its not a brain tumor lol

Thank goodness I'm up to 200mg of Lamictal to help keep out of any awful depressions because of this. My hands are really bugging me though. I am an ultrasound tech so they are my money maker. If they don't work, I'm screwed. Well I wil just have to go back to school to learn something else, maybe radiology or radiation therapy. I won't need to do fine motor movements like I do now.

I think the worst is waiting for test results. I just want to know what it is so I can do whatever I need to do to feel better. It's also the unpredictable nature of MS that scares me. I always need to have everything planned out or it drives me crazy.

Thanks for listening! I'm keeping my head up and keep on plugging through. There's much worse things I could have. I'm fortunate it's not cancer.

[AniManiac]

I'm so sorry to hear that, Sheba - but glad it's not worse. I'm glad you're keeping it in perspective. I hope it doesn't force a job change, but it sounds like you already have some good ideas in mind if it's necessary. Kudos to you on that!

[faerie_moon_x]

It's going to be okay, Sheba! I know MS is a scary thing.

I have a good online friend who has MS. She's had it for many years. She used to be a make-up artist for monster movies, but now she is home. But that does not mean she is not leading a good life. She is very smart and kind and runs her own forum. She also takes good care of her son who has sever Autism. She has friends all over the world and even travels to visit them when she is well enough.

Take time to take care of yourself now. New diagnosis are hard to take.

[Resident Bipolar]

We're all here for you.
RB ♥

[missbelle]

Yes we are here when you need us......medical issues are always very scary...I am way older and they still scare me tons!!

Thinking of you
Keep us posted on what is going on!!

Sheba! We're here. It is hard to wait when things are up in the air and the wondering and all the "what ifs". You have a good attitude in considering that it could be worse, and in looking for what you can do -- a pro-active position -- to think about what you can do to feel better once you know. Keeping you in my thoughts. Keep us posted, ok?

[Secretum]

((Sheba)) That sounds really scary.

[Trippin2.0]

I'd just like to echo that we're here for you, so please keep us posted on how you're doing and what the Dr's say. XOXO

[Sheba976]

Oh thanks all for your concern. We are lucky to have each other. I had my pdoc appt Friday and they were very happy with how well I was taking things. I'm so fortunate to have already been on Lamictal for a few months. They have up'd it to 200 mg (I asked for it) just to ward off any depressions and help me get through this. It really is keeping my spirits up. I really haven't this well emotionally in a long time. I think because I'm in the medical field I'm not scared. I have seen patients in much worse condition than I am. I have one patient who has been on chemotherapy for over 2 years. She had breast cancer which spread to her spine and brain. She always has a smile on her face every time I see her. Next time I see her, I want to tell her she's my inspiration to get through this. I've spent so many years depressed that this is almost a wake up call for me. I want to enjoy my life now not spend my days in misery and torture. My next set of MRI's is thursday. I'll know more then about what is actually going on so I can find out what my next steps are. Thanks all for your concern.