mind at 100 MPH, body at 2

I posted on the introduction site but thought I'd start here again. I am still manic and still not accepting this whole diagnosis. For 11 years I've thought it was just Major depression. Even when my pdoc says he has witnessed me manic before in brief hospital stays, it is hard for me to believe him because I don't remember them. But, I trust him, so he must be right. I have read some on mania and know I have most of the symptoms. I have to say today is the best one yet in three weeks. Still not sleeping as well as I should. Even when my meds make me sleepy, my mind ways no, you have too many things to do to waste time lying in a bed! But, being that I know I have bipolar now, I am going to have to learn to live with it. I am just so irritated right now that I can't imagine any kind of productive life in this condition. I've been out of work for a week during the worst of it, but I know I cannot do that very often. I am glad to have found this site and hoping to meet others like me who "get it". I KNOW depression, I do not KNOW mania and Im irritated with every bit of it. Well, hello to everyone and I am going to take my meds and try to sleep more that four hours. Hope to hear from some of you guys later. Thanks for listening. I could say so much more but I am afraid I will go off into some irrelevant ranting and just take up space.

Welcome! You've come to the right place. Lots of people here will 'get it'. I hope your mind slows down long enough for you to get some decent rest, I understand how frustrating that can be... XOXO

Welcome
Hope you get some good

Irrelevant ranting can be useful to others.

Welcome to PC. You're in the right place, we get it. Hopefully you got some sleep.

Hello! Welcome.

I know right now it may seem hopeless to be diagnosed, but you really can fight it. Taking your meds and being in treatment is good. Also remembering that you're still the same person you were before is very good. You just happen to have bipolar. That doesn't mean you are someone else now. And it is important not to give up, even when depression is trying to make you do it!

Just coming here and looking for support is a great way to fight. Knowledge really is power, and support is power, too. I'm really glad I found this place myself. Everyone is so helpful, supportive, and understanding.

(((( Hugs ))))) and Welcome to PC

I think you will find alot of us are feeling just like you are..

Finding this place for me has been a life saver everyone here is so supportive and really can Understand .

Thank you all for your responses. I still feel just out of control. I am paranoid to have a conversation because lately every conversation I get into I seem to interrupt everyone with some irrelevant tangent. I've been trying to tell myself that I am just smart and having some deeper thought processes than others..lol. Boy is that mania at it's best. I did manage to get more sleep last night than in a while. Tonight, headed to bed. Tomorrow is my first day back at work in a week. I am praying that the morning will bring back even more of a sense of normalcy. I have no doubt I can complete my job successfully, I just may make others think I'm weird while I'm doing it. I guess finding humor in it all is the only thing giving me some peace at this point. Back to the pdoc on Tuesday morning and hopefully will feel even better after that. All of you have these great things to post and I am learning so much just from reading. I thank God for this site and for every person on it that cares enough to even read my rantings and the stories from others. I never thought I would find myself in any type of group trying to deal with myself. My hope is that as I adjust to this whole thing, I will learn enough to help others the same way each of you are helping me. Thanks again.

This is my first post as well so I just wanted to let you know that you are not alone in both your feelings and being new to this. As I have seen by all the other posts apparantely we are not alone and I believe together we can all get eachother through. Thanks for posting.