[teresapooh98]

I started noticing that I was becoming depressed when I started isolating myself on Friday Dec. 30, 2011. I have kept isolating myself and eating too much. I am getting so emotional like after my appointment on Friday with my pdoc/t I cried for about a half an hour. The reason I was crying was trivial one was because I'm not seeing my pdoc/t till Wednesday, it being the end of the year, and after christmas in 2010 I had to put down my dog. Today i was going to start cryng because my niece who is 2 got into time out and i just was going to cry how stupid is that. Last night I had thoughts of taking a bunch of pills but I didn't. I feel worthless and hopeless. I feel like I have no meaning in life. I compare myself to others and that is not a good thing to do,

[unico]

*hugs* I am very sorry you feel this way! Can you see a doctor/psychiatrist or therapist about this? If you are thinking about suicide it is very serious.

[teresapooh98]

Originally Posted by unico

*hugs* I am very sorry you feel this way! Can you see a doctor/psychiatrist or therapist about this? If you are thinking about suicide it is very serious.

I know suicide is very serious because I have attempted many times. I do see my therapist on Wednesday so I will tell her then. Thanks 4 your concern and reply.

[RapidFlyer]

(((((((((((((teresalpooh98))))))))))))))

I hope you start feeling better soon. It's no fun being that low. Is there any way you can contact your doc sooner as your feeling suicidal? At least to just check in. I do that when I am really low. Just to make sure I don't act out.

Hang in there. You are not alone.

[theGirlNextDorm]

Don't worry about how you compare to others. Right now you need to focus on feeling better and getting support. You're right that you shouldn't be crying that much, but there's no reason to beat yourself up about it. It happens to all of us (especially me, it seems like. ). Hang in there and reach out to your therapist and others who care about you *hugs* Things will get better!

[teresapooh98]

I took my scheduled dose of klonopin .25mg about an hour ago and it isn't really working. Part of me still feels taking extra pills but I won't. I do see my pdoc who is also my therapist tomorrow morning and will tell her everything. Getting lower by the day. Going to ask her if we can up my last dose of klonopin. With an organization I belong to I had my first class of intro to German. I really didn't want to go because of my anxiety but I went. My anxiety is very high.

[hartbroken]

Teresa,
I have bipolar, and have been suffering major depression since the fall of 2011. We've (the doctor and I) have tried several medications. Nothing seemed to work for a while. I was very weepy and went to the ER once for suicide attempt. I feel your pain. It's so scary and sad, and people do weep uncontrolably when they have a major depression.

We finally tried Prozac, Trazodone, along with the bipolar meds Abilify, Lithium, and of course Clonazepam. I wish you the best of luck. Bipolar tends to go in cycles, and this winter I know a lot of people who are sick with depression. Hang in there!

BTW, 0.25mg of Klonopin (Clonazepam) isn't enough to do much. See if you can get the doctor to put you on 2mg a day, spread out with 0.5mg tablets.

[tutitaylor]

I am glad that you were strong enough to stick to scheduled amount of Klonopin. I know how you feel I get anxiety big time. Sometimes mine is not enough for me. I Just wait it out. I think that was a great thing to go to your German Class even though your anxiety is really high. It helps pass the time. I hope that you can call your pdoc/T tomorrow and check in. Things will improve! Tuti