Learning my BP Patterns

I go through these spells where thoughts just zoom through my head. So many of them that it is hard to stay on task. I will forget to do something or where I put something in just a few minutes because that item was so many thoughts ago.

I am in a social mood and would love to go hang with friends but at the same time I need to clean up my house and I don't give a rats arse what it looks like.
And when I am like this a social setting can trigger mania. But at the same time staying home alone triggers depression. Other things can do either also, but it is an example.

And one minute my mood is positive and the next negative. This is the part of BP that is frustrating. I know I just need to ride the wave and it will pass, but I've been like this for a week and I'm tired of it. Just needed to vent. Don't have family or friends that would understand.

(((Rosie23)))

I go through the same things. It suck and it feels like a headach and idk about you but I get scared of tipping the scale, while at the same time really just want to scale to tip!

I color my frustration away with crayons.

Good luck, and I hope you settle out soon.

Oh i know the feeling too! I'll be in the middle of doing something and my mind will be racing and i'll go to do something else and completely forget what i had to do in the first place! Its actually really nice when the pendulum stops swinging for a bit and i act "normal." Unfortunately, its all part of the cycle

Oh and i love the coloring idea! I used to do that at school, but now i usually draw when i'm really frustrated or just work out and push myself.

Just remember you aren't alone and eventually things will calm down

Sorry your riding the roller coaster again , Im in the same car 2 rows back .

This too shall pass ((( Hugs ))))

"And when I am like this a social setting can trigger mania. But at the same time staying home alone triggers depression."

You nailed it right on the head, Rosie. I will think about this insight all day. Why are we like this?