Just diagnosed with bipolar

I am so excited to have found this website- last year, I was diagnosed with bipolar, I believe type I, the less severe of the two types. I was in denial for a really long time that I had bipolar, even though I was sort of releived to realize that it had probably been the source of my problems since childhood. I was 23 last year, when the really rapid cycling started, and usually was at work and ready to admit myself to the ER thinking I was having a nervous breakdown. When I am in this mode, I will do anything to stop the racing thoughts, including thinking about doing harm to myself or putting myself in danger. I am still struggling every day, working in a public service position with the WIC program and dealing with people in my face all day. I am married, and my husband has suffered for many years with severe panic disorder and agoraphobia. Now, we are at our wits end, each dealing with our problems of how to cope. Does anyone else have issues with significant others in their lives also having mental issues? I am on Lamictal, only 125 mg and Klonopin for sleep and anxiety, but I am not feeling normal yet. One minute I feel normal, the next I feel like it would be better if I was dead. Not sure how to cope, as I am receiving psychotherapy and am scared that the Lamictal may not be working. Perhaps I am not to a therapeutic dose yet? I would love to interact with other people dealing with those issues and to get your input on these things. Thank you for listening!