I want to quit my job!

Where I work is not a healthy environment and the position I'm in is even worse, various reasons. I wish I didn't have to go. I want to sleep, all the time.

I want to quit and hide in my bed all day.

I told my husband about it. He knows I'm depressed and he knows there isn't anything he can do about it. It stresses him out when I talk about it and I end up feeling worse. I get so mad at him! For awhile he was in a mixed state and spending a ton of money, not working and I was going to school and working to support us while our savings were spent. I know he was sick but, I wish I could be that irresponsible and just quit my job right now without feeling bad about it.

I might lose my job any day anyway. I've lost focus. I make mistakes and I feel like some are out to get me, or maybe I'm hypersensitive and a bit paranoid. I'm embarassed about my depression hitting too. People don't understand it and keep asking me what's wrong. Stop it!!!! I'm afraid going into work somedays because I am losing my ability to hide it, what am I talking about? I have no ability to hide it. I cried at my desk the other day. I'm a disappointment. I don't want to do it anymore but, how the heck am I going to survive?

I feel you completely, I was a truck driver. Over the road away from home for 8-10 weeks at a time. My bipolar got WAY WAY WAY out of control, and I'm writing you this from the Hospital. i just up and quit last Friday without thinking. Now I'm terribly depressed and at times pyschotic. I understand your frustrations exactly.

i want to quit my job most days so I understand how you are feeling.

It will be better when your depression passes. Are there things you can do to improve your mood? Can your pdoc increase your meds? Sometimes going for a walk helps me when I'm depressed...
Don't be embarrassed by your depression, its a sickness just like any other. Do you have any sick leave due for the really bad days?
hope you are feeling better soon. it will get better...

((CocoaBeans))- How you do sound like me at times- My work environment is not the best, and can get quiet chaotic- even the "normal" people have issues with it- I use normal loosely btw.

I have been told by many, that perhaps find another job--- one that fits my strengths.. I sort of chuckle at that, really in this economy and I have no schooling degree to which they would want first rather than any strength that I show to them right-- Perhaps you are in a different situation with that, but it is a suggestion that is given to me so I will give it to you.

Also, with this job that I have, I have been told by many (even managers) to try not care/worry so much-- but yet it is so hard.

I wish you well and many hugs your way. It is hard to work in a place that is not so great when you are feeling down, overwhelmed or that people out to get you-- I think I am getting over partial of paronia myself with my own job- I got to thinking even the cleaning lady was out to get me and taddle on me as well and some others that are not directly connected to my job-- It is silly in "retro spec" but not freaking silly when in the time era (that is for sure)



ChandlerT660-- I also want to say Get better as well. Things always work out some how right? I keep getting told that too.. maybe not how I want, but they do work out some how, some way, at some time...... (Some days I just can't wait for it)

I'll suggest you not to quit the job. I taught in a school and i quit the job because of the same feelings you are experiencing now. Now i regret doing it. Because i realized that problem was not in the job, it was in my mind. If you quit doing any work, it will make you feel even worse. Just take your time and think how you can cope with it (which i'm sure you can do). Don't let your talent wasted up beacuse of depression. You CAN make it.
Wish you good luck!

Been there done that. Sometimes you get that overwhelming need to quit a job.

But like many others, later on you regret having been impulsive. The problem was me not the job. I needed better or more meds. Therapy. Time off.

I hope you feel better soon though. It can make getting through the work day hell.

Another option is to look for a better job, while you still have this one.

I can relate. Every day is such a struggle for me, too.
I'm a teacher and I plan on either reducing my hours, if there is a position available, or quitting altogether next year. Meanwhile, I have to make myself go everyday, and then put on the work face. I can't go and hide anywhere all day, and there are times that I have to do clever tricks to hide a crying spell.
I wish there was a get-to-work-without-stress pill!
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Thanks for the replies and support guys! I've talked with a friend, coworkers and former coworkers and concluded, it is not all me, the job really does suck.
I've started my job search. I won't be walking out unless I'm walking into something else.
With that in mind, I'm going to ride the low mood wave and see if it is just stress or impending doom/med change time.