[bluematador]

There are days I see this illness as an adventure. I always wanted to be an adventurer. Then there are days I simply wish it didn't exist and I was free to pursue my dreams unhindered by it. My pdoc installed a new computer system and my refill requests for medication got lost in cyberspace. I had to wait nine days and make numerous phone calls before my meds were refilled. Seven days of no meds sent me down into the underworld. I experienced some intense withdrawals from some of the meds. My meds were finally refilled yesterday afternoon but I still haven't recovered completely. I am still shaking and cring off and on. I missed three days of school lost in a nightmare of hallucinations, seizures, weeping and terror. It is frightening to become aware of how dependent I am on these medications. Without them some of my symptoms can become worse then they were before I was on them. It all happened so fast. Within two days of being off my meds I was a mess. It makes me question the use of them and the benefits. I wish there was another way to find stability that didn't make me dependent on someone else.

How are you doing today, bluematador?

[KevN86]

Which meds? Seizures? Sounds like Benzo WD.

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[BuggsBunny]

Wow, that sounds like a nightmare! I'm so sorry you had to go through that! I think I would have marched myself into the doctor's office and asked for the refills, NOW, if that were happening to me. 7 days is just too long to be in hell...

How are you doing now that you have your meds again?

I don't like being dependent on meds for much the same reasons. Things go wrong. You're at the mercy of someone else and their prescription pad. Or worse, an insurance company's formulary list.

[bluematador]

I called the office in tears and they finally faxed my feillls. They just installed a new computer system and my refill requests were sent out into cyberspace. The pdoc is only in her office two days a week so she didn't get my phone messages. I am starting to recover. I think the benzos were causing the big withdralws. I have been on then for a while and quiting them cold turkey insn't recommended. I have epilepsy and I ran out of the anticonvulsant to so it all happened once. No fun!