[KeepGoing8]

I'm feeling extra crazy these last few days. If I'm not crumpled and sobbing, I'm exploding at my husband for the smallest things. I can't seem to stop the nasty insults from popping into my head and then out of my mouth. Blech! Even right now, at this moment, I look at him and listen to what he's saying...and all I can think is, "shut up! You sound like a stupid *****! Did I really marry such a dumba$$?" I've never really felt this way about him...and I'm riding that crazy line between thinking I'm finally waking up to his true nature, and realizing it's just an echo of my All Negative All the Time depressive mindset. This sux

[johnf22881]

I get that way with many kinds of relationships, but my thoughts don't always carry proof. Nevertheless, my thoughts end up flying out of my mouth anyway. Then the thoughts keep adding a little more to the size of the snowball I am creating. This usually causes the end result of feeling like an ***** myself and then having to ask for forgiveness, but in some cases I find that my thoughts and words are spot on.

The only thing that I have found to work for me is to examine my rules and goals. I mean basically just ask myself what I really want and then figure out if my rules even make sense. That sounds easy, but the hard part is for me to pull myself from the situation long enough to figure those things out without adding more fuel to the fire.

Hope that helps a bit

[Chihuahua]

Jip love him hate him that's me! No advice Sorry Hang in there!

[BlueInanna]

hard to give advice cuz maybe you're right that he's an annoying dufus, but maybe it's your own state of mind or stress ... i did a similar thing in a relationship recently. and i may have ended it, not sure. but i'm pretty sure mine is an annoying dufus and that i'm doing the right thing :/