[Warrioress]

Who here has watched the 2011 film Thor? And please don't throw things at me for posting this in the Bipolar forum; I'm gonna explain! (J/K I know you won't throw things at me)

Okay, the obvious explanation is that my primary diagnosis is Bipolar II and when there's something weird going on with me and I don't know where to put it this here forum is my first choice.

Well, I watched Thor only a few days ago and Loki had my sympathy from the very beginning to the very end. In fact, it was more than sympathy. I saw myself in him. I've felt fierce jealousy in the past and it has taken me so far that I would have destroyed myself or my rival or both if only I had the means. And Tom Hiddleston's acting was nothing short of perfect imho. It was a great movie and I liked one of the characters in it very much and I enjoyed Tom H's performance. Nothing wrong with that so far, eh?

Now the problem is that I had buried that side of me under a heap of other things. I've been almost indifferent towards the thing I was once so jealous about and I haven't been suicidal for more than a year. But it feels as if Loki has brought out the worst in me. Well, not exactly the worst, but the somewhat darker side of my personality. I was so frustrated the other day that I said to my best friend: "Damn Loki! I feel as if I'm really under the influence of the God of Mischief!" and no need to say, she was considerably alarmed by this remark. I'm a 19 year old girl and I wonder if Tom Hiddleston's attractiveness may have anything to do with this. I just can't get his ******* face out of my mind, but it's mostly the character's intensity. Could this be just some silly girly obsession? I seriously hope it's nothing worse.

Thank you if you have read the stupid rant to the end

[SmokeyPoole2012]

I'm not a female but it's my understanding that some girls are attracted to the bad boy image. I wouldn't think it odd at all that you feel some connection with the character if I were you.

I asked my daughter (18 years old) her opinion and she thinks Tom Hiddleston is cute.

No I haven't seen the movie yet.

[Warrioress]

That is very comforting Smokey. Thank you for caring enough to actually ask your daughter about it. Yeah, being attracted to the bad boy really isn't odd. What worries me is that this connection is between Loki and a past version of me. A part of me I wish to forget. Watching Thor was like a trigger, waking up a monster inside me. I've changed a lot or at least I like to think that I have, but I liked Loki so much in this movie that I wouldn't mind being like him and being able to relate to him. I know, however, that this would be the ruin of me. It's all very confusing. I just have to hope it's nothing serious and that it'll pass.