[moremi]

I had been feeling so well that I had been living a normal life the last couple of months and thought I would try to get my life back and body back so I quit the meds that have put 50lbs on me. (I lost nothing from going off my meds by the way) Now here i am inside the house hiding from the rest of the world. I started taking my meds again two days ago. My memory is so bad i couldnt remember this website. Its awful. i googled around until i found it. i had been on here daily for so long and I dont know what happened, I just lost track of everything. Anyways Im back, wish i could say med free but I tried and I cant do it.

[Victoria'smom]

I'm sorry you hit a bad patch hopefully your meds will kick in soon and you'll be back to having a normal life.

[moremi]

Thank you, Im hoping its just a bad few days. I have been sick with a cold. Ive just been sleeping so much when I was used to only sleeping a couple hours a night. I still wake up seems like i am never comfortable but i go back to sleep anyways.
The meds should kick in soon right? Im not sure how long it took for them to work in the first place. I just cant remember anything it seems. I dont know what the heck is even going on. I go to the doc on the 19th. I missed my appt this month and my doc thought i was doing so well last time he didnt want to see me for two months. so its been awhile since i have seen the doc. I should just kick myself in the *** for trying to go off the meds. I know I have to be on them and somehow my brain keeps telling me Im normal again its ok to just wein off the meds. 3 weeks off meds and I am depressed while its so sunny and pretty out and I just close my eyes to the daylight. So not like me. I love the sunshine. I was growing beautiful flowers and since I have been down they just died. I spent so much on those damn flowers. It was becoming a new hobby and just like that overnight I just switch off and I havent watered or done anything. How horrible I just let everything die outside....

[BlueInanna]

Hi Moremi, sorry you're not feeling well, but happy to see you back here
Quitting meds has been crossing my mind... not cuz I feel ok, but because I don't feel ok and get mad at all these pills. But I won't quit now, I know I need to keep on them right now. I'm so sorry about your lovely flowers that's a bummer. Hope you feel better soon and can get back out there with the gardening.

[moremi]

Thank you.

I think its a good idea to stay on meds. Maybe another adjustment or new med is needed until they can find the correct med for you. I know we had mine right and I quit taking meds because I thought I was fine without them. Goodness.... Im not ok I am sad for no reason. I feel like a lazy fat blimp...ugh I am not happy with myself....

[bluemountains]

I am so sorry, moremi. I have really wanted to go off my meds lately, even though I am finally stable. I'm not going to, though, because my pdoc said she would not write me a prescription for klonopin-the one I depend on for sleep-if I didn't take all of the meds she prescribes. Bribery!
I hope your meds kick in soon and you get your good feeling back. I am sure that the cold isn't helping either, so when that goes away maybe you'll at least feel a little better.
Good luck!
Bluemountains

[BuggsBunny]

Oh, Moremi! I'm so sorry you crashed! I know all of us pretty much want to be med free, but most of us just can't do it. I ran out of my trileptal (mood stabilizer) last weekend, because I had a cold and couldn't get to town to get to the pharmacy. Usually this is the last drug I would mess with. Well, I went 5 days without it, and then finally had to ask someone to go to town for me. The withdrawal had me dizzy as a blond (no offense blondies!) and tumbling over flat on my face! I'm still waiting for it to kick in, but now I have all the restarting side effects making it worse.

Long story short, you are not alone, my friend. I'm right here next to you wondering what in the heck was I thinking??? I suspect the meds fool our brains into thinking, Hey, we're fine now, we don't need this stuff that's making us fat, nauseous, dizzy, whatever. Why not stop taking it? So some of us give in, crash, and find out we're better off fat, nauseous and dizzy.

Hang in there, Moremi, and I'll hang in there with you. It'll be better soon.

[~Christina]

Glad you came back Moremi .. I am sorry you are going thru all this pain.. Its always horrible to slip into that depressed place .. I too have wanted to quit my med ... daily actually LOL But I know I just cant so I take my meds daily with disgust ..

Hope you get to feeling better soon . Glad your back here so you can get some support while you get yor feet back under you

((( Hugs )))