[DaveyJones]

Hi... To begin, I'm BPII, started feeling symptoms, mainly depression in 1996, dx'd bp in 2005. Within a relatively short time I began to have episodes where my brain would "freeze" for want of a better word. In other words when I would try to do something that required serious planning and execution my head would just lock up–not able to continue, not able to think. I get a "heavy" sensation in the front of my head, rather like its been filled up with lead. I get pretty confused and I withdraw til I feel better.

As time went on I was not able to hold a job and I'm on disability. I tried going back to school, but I dropped out 3 out of the 4 semesters I was there–my brain just couldn't deal.

Tonight I began doing some maintenance on my band's equipment. I started my first task, and could not find a particular connector I needed. No problem, do something else, find the connector later. Start a new task, I begin to wonder if I'll mess up all the settings, ok, let's work with the wiring, oh damn it's too dark, I'll go ahead and put up thos new lights in the shop onandonandon.... Pretty soon I'm in a tizzy, my frontal lobes feel like bolders in my head and a massive headache and pretty disoriented.

So, I did what I usually do when I feel crazy... Come hang with y'all. I was just curious if a anyone else has had symptoms like these... Incredible racing thoughts accompanied by confusion and strange head "pains". I sure hope not, but sure like to hear from y'all. TIA

[rosesarered]

I've never had literal pain but confusion and feeling like "huh, what....huh I don't get it"
are very fimiliar. It seems to happen when my brain is on overload from working
too fast. I find if I can slow it waaaaaay down and focus super hard on one thing
that it goes away.
Try not to be so hard on yourself :-) learning to work with how your brain works
doesn't make you crazy. It just means you have to be a little more creative with
how you get things done :-)

[BlueInanna]

Davey that sounds horrible, get the headaches checked out by a doc. I get the brain freeze like stuck thing. But I can't sort it out if it's thoughts moving so fast that I can't isolate a single thought, or is it really stuck. Maybe it's like it's trying to find pieces of info somewhere in my head and there's a big pile of stuff to go through. That happens a lot with projects. I think it might be my add, idk.

[DaveyJones]

I used to get freezes where I would just. Stop for a moment, often in the middle of speaking. Lowered my Seroquel, pretty much took care of it.

When this happens there's no focusing to be done... I call the pain a headache, but it's not like a headache you might take aspirin for. That's just the only word I can come with that's even close to the feeling. It's like I start trying to organize something-a menu, to-do list, a project, whatever. Everything just seems to go off the rails. And it hurts!!!

Some of the suggestions in the "Discipline" thread might help, if I can manage to stay together long enough to make an extremely detailed "to-do plan".

To be honest, I'm beginning to get a bit older, this disease has stolen a career I loved, my family, my home and my reputation. I've found something i would like to do in this next phase of my life, and I don't want to lose out again to my bad brain!!!