does anyone else feel worse during the summer months.

i know i do

looking out on to the street and seeing everyone with beach balls and ice creams... eating mcdonalds on the drive.. that sorta thing.

and their's me.. here i sit, the worthless bipolar/ borderline, in my room, with only my voices for company- can't leave the house because i get too anxious, i've no friends, no direction, nothing to look forward to, what is the god dam point of me being here

and this year's gonna be harder.. all my family are going on holiday to africa so i will be stuck here even more alone than before. now don't get me wrong it was my choice not to go to africa (firstly because of my helusination about flying) and also to get out the house for me is a total nightmare.. so to an airport over an hour away?. that's just not gonna happen. plus me and my family don't get on anyway, so chances are i'd be worse off their.

it just gets harder for me every single summertime- more things lost, and harder for me to live through

sorry for ranting- but given the fact i've absolutely nothing going for me, life can just kiss my ***.

and i wouldn't usually write a message so long.. it was a pm i was replying to that triggered this post

I usually start to cycle more towards the holidays. That's when things usually get ugly for me.

I've seen a few of your posts now, and I think you sound like a really cool person! I too have fear of leaving my house sometimes. I wish your family would back you up more, it sounds like they don't.

Is it possible that you can plan a short, short walk outside? just around the neighborhood, down a street or two? That might really help the depression. Also, start taking vitamin D if you avoid the sun. It too might help with depression.

I read posts like this and I know there is not much I can do from here. I hope a friend knocks on your door, motivates you and takes a walk with you and listens. Really, that's what we need sometimes, is not to be alone with our pain, but have someone to share it with.

You can pm me if you need to vent. .... I'm a good listener

wow...

" you sound like a cool person?"

seriously?

hmm i like that.. may actually take you up on that pm offer

[BlueInanna]

Hi Shattered, did you read Dan's quote of the day, about creating yourself? pretty cool idea i think.... and it's never too late Even a short walk out the door, get a little sun and vitamin D, could be a very healing thing to do You do have friends, we are here

[~Christina]

Hiya Shattered,

I so understand where your coming from. As already reccomended do the Vit D , Even a quick walk outside and few deep breaths of the outside air can help.

Its easy to feel so overwhelmed , Just think of doing small things one step at a time.

Post or PM all you need too .. you will always find support here on PC

[insideout]

mine gets worse starting in spring and gets better starting in the fall.
half the year, im pretty messed up.

[Zoesmom]

Hi Shattered!

Have you always been this way.......worse in the summer? Mine is usally better spring/summer. Pdoc calls it ?? Some kind of syndrome. Anybody know?

During the holidays...Ugggg Always an accomplishment to get thru w/out going inpatient. I'm here if you need me. Don't know how to IM yet

[Zoesmom]

Originally Posted by morethingswrong

Hiya Shattered,

I so understand where your coming from. As already reccomended do the Vit D , Even a quick walk outside and few deep breaths of the outside air can help.

Its easy to feel so overwhelmed , Just think of doing small things one step at a time.

Post or PM all you need too .. you will always find support here on PC

This is Sooo true Christina =) I have to push myself soooooo hard to go outside during my deep depressions/ptsd/ect... But always GLAD I did it afterwards.

Vit D? Did I miss that in one of the posts? What does that do? Thanks!

[Blue Poppy]

Hi Shattered Sanity,

I have been worse for the past three summers. I can relate when you describe people outside having fun etc. All I want to do is go to my dark room and sleep the summer away. I don't, but it is what I feel like doing.

zoesmom, is it not S.A.D?

or is that winter.

hmm..

[grey_aj]

That's what I was going to say, seasonal affective is when you're depressed in the winter and happy in the summer. It has something to do with the light and temperature and things like that.

- AJ