[xXSeraphXx]

I'm a 16 y/o male. A couple days before Valentine's Day and our school's Valentine's Dance , a finally came out to a girl who I'd been good friends with for about 5 years. I was 15(softmore) and she(senior) 17. We hung out almost every weekend. She was really suprised when I admitted I'd been crushing on her. We eventually ended up dating. After about a month we said we loved each other. I guess things went pretty uphill from there. Then about a month later, Spring Break came around. I went down to Disney with my family and she stayed back home. We talked almost constantly. During that week, she told me she was madly in love with me and whatnot. I was pretty happy after that. The week dragged on, and I came home. We had planned to spend the day together, going down to a lake and just being together, listening to music, and dancing (etc...).
I texted her an hour before we were supposed to meet up, and she said she couldn't. I was pretty confused, and angry in fact. ( We had planned this for a week, she took off work that week, and was complaining there was not much to do.). She said that she had school stuff to finish, and that most of all we needed time apart...hadn't seen her for a week. I took it pretty badly and started talking to her best friend about it. I got the same answer from her.

About two weeks dragged on and during those two weeks, my great uncle died. I also lost four old friends from my hometown to a car accident. I was not in the best shape. And on top of all that, I found out quite a few things from people, and my better friends, that she had been saying about me. (I'm not going to repeat them). I was heartbroken and pretty ticked at this point (and somehow still in love with her). We had been talking every couple days throughout the week. I went off on her one night. We were trying to figure out went wrong, I think. She ended up saying that she just wanted to keep our friendship. I gave it a shot. Went to her house one day to hang out. After about 15min, without saying a word the entire time, I left. She ended up at my house and I broke down in her arms (yeah...guys cry too). She left without saying goodbye... About 3 days later (or something) she texted me one day late at night. (I'm severly depressed and heartbroken at this point). I eventually just lost it and, qoute, told her : 'If you don't leave me alone and stop talking to me, I'm comminting suicide.' Low and behold, she stopped texting me. Then, 10min later, she showed up at my door. Of course I cound't answer it at 10:30 at night, because my mom got there first. Blew off my mom saying I was just saying it to get her off my back (I'm not even sure about that one). I went to mulitiple therapy meetings via school. Since then, I haven't talked to her or her friend (she too bugged and I told her, profanly, to buzz off).

And now to the main point. 6 months or so later, after falling in love with another girl, and telling her so, my ex is still on my mind. And now, caught between a past love and a new one, I'm thourghouly confused and exasperated. I'm always up late, I can't sleep (I'm getting about 6 hours of sleep daily) and I'm always finding myself thinking about her. It's tearing me up and I have no idea what to do.

Also:

Any mention of her sends me ballistic.

A couple of my really good friends think I'm a little insane.

I also found out I have bipolar (via self assesments and my friends' assesments.)

(Repost from OCD)

[moremi]

Do you think it could possibly be that she rejected you when you came back and you still dont know how to handle that? We always want what we cant have sort of thing?

[Resident Bipolar]

It's unhealthy to self-diagnose, even if friends agree. Only a medical professional can make a diagnoses - both self-assessed and peer evaluations are insufficient to label yourself bipolar.

Anyway on to the matter in hand. It can often be difficult to move on from a past relationship, it should get better with time. I'm not too clued up on what to do if it doesn't eventually begin to be less painful, but talking to a therapist could help. Try and find things to distract yourself.

RB.

[snugglebeary]

I'm 16 and I was dx with bipolar whenever I was 14.
I'm still in the process of learning about my disorder.
I'm having some major issues right now myself.
And term bipolar gets a little misused sometimes.
But talk to a health care professional and they will help you.
You can private message me if you want since we're close to the same age.

I hope you get better though.

[snugglebeary]

I just re-read your post.
I don't think you're bipolar. Relationships are hard to get over and you are probably just a little depressed. It takes some time to get over a relationship.
I don't think you're bipolar though, but I'm not a doctor and I'm never around you.

Try finding something else you enjoy like art, sports, videogames, ect. to try to get your mind off things.
Hang out with your friends, and don't talk about your ex.
Try to avoid anything that might get you thinking about her. Don't talk to her or about her.
If you find yourself thinking about her think about the bad things she did to you or think about something else.
If she goes to the same school ignore her. Avoid any contact with her.

This is how I get over my ex's.

Anyways, there are plenty of fish in the sea.

I'm not sure if this would help you, but go talk to a therapist or counselor.