[~Christina]

Yep that pretty much explains it.

Every noise I hear is too loud, Every hallucination I see is too vivid.
The wind blowing is annoying. The sun shining is making me pissy.
My husband snores to loud. Odors from anything are too strong.

Can you see a pattern?

I SHOULD be thrilled, we are driving to Florida (14 hour car trip) Wednesday to see my daughter and his sons for a week.. I have been keeping a mood chart ( maybe mixed episode?).. I see my T( I'm going to do some hypnotherapy..I need it bigtime) on Wednesday (before we leave) I'm hoping he can help me unwind... ALL my typical "calm down and refocus stuff is not working ( ugh)

Im trying sooooo damn hard to keep a positive attitude. It's not a "high positive" mood mind you but better than to rage I'm feeling and afraid it might break out.. ( make sense?)

Can the world just stop for a minute so I can get off and take a damn break.

On top of all the above mess ... My Fibromyalgia Pain level is through the
roof ...

UGH

[Setso]

hang in there MTW, can really tell you need a break

anyway you can tell your family - "i need to sleep for a few days, send a PM to my forum inbox." ?

[~Christina]

Thanks Setso

My body does not understand the word sleep ...Ever..

I typically sleep 3-4 hours a nite despite enough sleeping medications to knock out a small nation.

Oh I so wish I could sleep for even 8 hours... Sleep is a foreign word.

[eloquentdisaster]

I'm so sorry you have to go through all this! I hope you feel better soon

[cocoabeans]

Sounds like it's time to take up smoking again.

I hate when sleep medications don't work and doctors look at you like, 'what?!' When you complain.

Originally Posted by morethingswrong

Yep that pretty much explains it.

Every noise I hear is too loud, Every hallucination I see is too vivid.
The wind blowing is annoying. The sun shining is making me pissy.
My husband snores to loud. Odors from anything are too strong.

Can you see a pattern?

I SHOULD be thrilled, we are driving to Florida (14 hour car trip) Wednesday to see my daughter and his sons for a week.. I have been keeping a mood chart ( maybe mixed episode?).. I see my T( I'm going to do some hypnotherapy..I need it bigtime) on Wednesday (before we leave) I'm hoping he can help me unwind... ALL my typical "calm down and refocus stuff is not working ( ugh)

Im trying sooooo damn hard to keep a positive attitude. It's not a "high positive" mood mind you but better than to rage I'm feeling and afraid it might break out.. ( make sense?)

Can the world just stop for a minute so I can get off and take a damn break.

On top of all the above mess ... My Fibromyalgia Pain level is through the
roof ...

UGH

you got an amazing grip...!


yep Christina I used to say the same thing...!

then I started sayin' "stop the friggin world I want to get ON!"

....cos keep getting spun off....spun out...

...losing my grip in this unstable world



but it's ok to spin slippery as it is...

[Seaswept]

Hi more,
I am sorry you are going through all of this. Hopefully the hypno therapy will help and you may feel better once you get to Florida, being in a different place may help.

Just a little more support here. How about just trying to run on the spinning world. That may tire you out and crash. I've been taking a natural sleep aid with melinoin in it. It doesn't work all night, but it helps to start sleep. Then get to Florida and breath in the warm sea air......aahhhh....wish I could. Best wishes on your trip.

[Moose72]

Hugs! I've been thinking of you!

[Victoria'smom]

[BlueInanna]

Keep hangin on mama, you are dearly loved!

Originally Posted by morethingswrong

Every noise I hear is too loud, Every hallucination I see is too vivid.
The wind blowing is annoying. The sun shining is making me pissy.
My husband snores to loud. Odors from anything are too strong.

Can you see a pattern?

Sure do. Hypersensitivity, thou art a biotch worse than heartless gravity.

Originally Posted by morethingswrong

.... It's not a "high positive" mood mind you but better than to rage I'm feeling and afraid it might break out.. ( make sense?)

Total sense.

Good luck with the hypnotherapy. You've had it before, yes? What is it like? I've always been curious, but never had it.
And here's hoping your fibro mellows out. I can't even imagine the combo.... (but just the emotional part, no squishing!)

How are you doing today?

[~Christina]

Thanks Everyone for the support , I love that I can come here and vent and be understood (unlike real life) * sigh*

I was able to sleep 5 hours !!! Which compared to my typical 3 hours is a huge improvement.

Iz...... to answer your question about Hypnotherapy.. It has been sooo helpful in fact it helped go way back to my childhood and see where I started all this bipolar mess .. ( i was about 6 years old !!! ) I didn't believe it in when my T first brought it up but I figured what the hell .

Again Thank you all

[Trippin2.0]

Christina, soo sorry you've been dished a supersized serving of crap! I hope the hypnotherapy helps, and that the fibro and bp back the fk up so you can feel the sunshine without it searing into your skin

[Trippin2.0]

Sorry, that was rude... Still working on 'sweet', maybe I just have to wait for it to return

[bluemountains]

I am sooooo sorry, MTM. I hope you get some relief soon.
Bluemountains

[~Christina]

Trippin that was NOT rude ! Every word was flat out truth !!! And just how I feel.

Thanks

[Trippin2.0]

Lol, ohk then, your most welcome!

Keep hanging on, and hanging on. Wish I could send you some huge cat claws in the mail.

Hypnotherapy, I hope it helps you unwind, sounds interesting too, and I am glad it's helping.

I really REALLY really hope you can enjoy this trip and visit. The fybro and BP really does need to just back the **** up . Can't agree with Trippin more on that one. This is kinda what breaks my heart, not really even kinda, it just does. You are a good women, with great heart, courage, empathy, compassion, loyalty, patience, you keep going, you try to do what's right....

It's like either you have a massive overflow of Karma that is just going to rain down on you one day, or Karma doesn't exist at all. I prefer the first scenario better of coarse, but like seriously, isn't that downpour like due any day now??? Maybe we all gotta get together and shake the heck out of them damn clouds.

The positivity will ebb and flow, like most things, you are doing a great job at it! Don't let little or even big dips in it persuade you otherwise.

I hope you manage to have an awesome time. And travel safely!! And let us know how it goes! And take a hat, and wear sunscreen! Don't pet alligators!! And make sure you bring a jacket!!!

Love you!! Have a safe fun trip!

I'm sorry I have been stuck in my own little mess, and yes it's just a little one. But I've still been thinking about you. Sometimes, I can't respond very quickly cause I want to offer more then lousy words can. But then I can't find another way.

How are you doing today?

[Moose72]

I actually thought of hypnotherapy for me! Wonder how to approach that.

[~Christina]

Anika .. You make me smile

How am I today ? I think maybe a tad better or I'm just getting us to this nonsense..

I slept about 4 hours but pretty much stayed in bed all day and had a big fat ridiculous pity party for myself , cried like a fool , I now have a headache from hell ..red swollen eyes and nose ... But I honestly think it may have helped .. just purging myself of all the Horrible self imposed hatred about myself .

So I'm finally up and moving ( painfully.. Damn Fibro)

Thanks to ALL of you for your never ending support . I cant even put into words how much it helps altho we are all seperated by miles upon miles upon miles YOU all bring me smiles , hope and love .

Thank you

Wishing you very safe travels today!

Hoping you are ok.

Wow we posted at exact same time hehe.

Glad to hear you are feeling a tad better! That purging really does help sometimes. My bf actually bought me some anti eye puffiness cream one time, cause I purge so much!! eeek. It gave me a chemical burn around my eyes too. Looked awesome. Cucumbers really do help, I tried it a few times when it was pretty bad and I didn't want to leave the house.

Hopefully that self imposed self hatred will run itself dry.

have a fabulous trip!! I'll keep you in my thoughts. Stay safe.

Edit: we didn't post at the same time or same day even. Very weird, because I just checked this thread and your last post wasn't there until after I posted. That or I am losing it.

[~Christina]

Im in Florida .. Oh what a hellish drive ! No sleep for about 30ish hours ... But my daughter is on her way to my hotel and taking me to dinner .. so despite lack of sleep Im SO DAMN HAPPY !!!