[manic most days]

So as much as I did NOT want to go to my counseling after that super jerkface telling me to not be manic because of how it appears I still went!!!
I immediately got that off my chest how I almost didn't come and how I DID NOT want that man counseling my child. Much to my surprise my counselor was upset! She wanted to know exactly what was said then ended it with he should of talked to me first, if he thinks you look like that now he should have seen you when you first started coming in & gave me a kudos on how proud of me she is
Then we discussed my son ugh.... I'm glad we spent the time talking about him this week!!! I can't do all his work for him anymore, I enable him, protect him, fight too hard for him and only for him to blame me when he messes anything up. I trust the courts won't be giving him to his dad after the call I made this morning to children services and he is just going to have to sit there in shelter and throw his fit. It is not my fault, I accept that and I feel a lot better!!!!
So I took the kiddos to the beach from the time they got home until almost dark and we played smash ball, amazing how our own sickness can so easily defeat us sometimes. Honestly I wouldn't have even gone today if I didn't want to get a damn greivance form against that jerkface

[MommaR]

You go, MMD!

[BlueInanna]

Good thing you went, good job!! Yes, really hard part about this, is the enabling, thinking we're helping then by getting them outa trouble, doing their work for them, paying the price for their errors. We exhaust ourselves until we cannot function! These guys are old enough to know the right from wrong that we taught them. Every time we bail them out, we're saying we don't think you can handle it. And then they walk all over us, do whatever they want, think they're the boss. But really, to teach them to be men, we need to believe in them that they can get through the hard work of fixing their mistakes. And still be there to love them unconditionally. Mine tells me I don't love him because I didn't pay for this or this. I say dont you ever compare how much i love you to the price of a material item, I love you more than words can explain.

[BlackPup]

Awesome job, glad you got through this and were able to do some constructive therapy.