[Faraway tree]

So I grew up in a lovely quiet little seaside town. I'm living in a city with more people in it than my country.

My home town has zero career opportunity, like I prob wouldn't get a job bless someone in my profession retires as there are probably ten jobs max in my specialty in the town.

My home town and family don't know I'm bipolar.

How much of a bombshell do you think it would be for me to say I'm tired, I'm a bit sick, i have bipolar and I need a break. And go to art school for a year.

I can't fix myself in the big city in a new country by myself.

I'm 26 and left my home town seven years ago, also when I got bp.

I just want to go home. I just need to pay back my awesome one way ticket to Asia for three months then unemployed in a new country for two months manic savings, as I embarked with $2k (haha not in aus or us dollars either!) credit card bill first.

I just want to go home. I can't tell if it's me copping out and playing the sick role or not, I've just not been ok for over a year now, I can't get back on the horse ATM. But I don't seem sick to others, ppl think I'm ok.

I don't know. My gut says go home, every day.

[cocoabeans]

Well, what do you mean fix you? What exactly do you expect to accomplish at home?

I did the travel to Asia on credit too by the way! Lol...good times

[Clinte89]

I would say do what you think will be best for you. Take care of what you have to and leave cause you can always come back.

[Faraway tree]

Originally Posted by cocoabeans

Well, what do you mean fix you? What exactly do you expect to accomplish at home?

I did the travel to Asia on credit too by the way! Lol...good times

Haha spontaneous one way ticket bought while drunk? ....oops

[Faraway tree]

Originally Posted by Clinte89

I would say do what you think will be best for you. Take care of what you have to and leave cause you can always come back.

This is a good point, I can just always come back... Hmmm

Sounds reasonable to me, Faraway Tree. If you don't feel alive where you are, you
need to be in a place where you come back to life very quickly and recover from the
episodes of bipolar illness that have hit you since you moved away.

The original home in our lives has roots that are very deep and we need to respect them. Find your happiness; life is too long not to look for it where you can!

Take care.

Genetic

[Blue Poppy]

Over the course of not being stable for two years, I have always felt the most comfort when my parents are around. I seek home too.

[Faraway tree]

It's funny, I spent so long pushing myself onward and upward just so my parents wild never find out and I wouldn't have to go home. Now I just want to tell them and go home. Hmm.

Thanks for your thoughts guys, it's helpful