[Sadguy7]

its all about struggle and survival of the fittest and i cant do it anymore
i cant do anything and everything is too hard

[WhiteCruelty]

Yes, that is the life. A way nothing easy.

yes. oh yes. everything being too hard. you have to minimize the things that you do and find ways that others can help you to get the stuff done that you absolutely have to get done. I am in the process of doing this myself. I almost lost my company recently, but I found a way to keep it and grow it but it's all based on the help of others. I can't do it alone anymore. not now that i don't get hypo. I'm not superman and neither are you. what are your troubles specifically?

[Trippin2.0]

Life's a beeeech! Seriously tho, its not too hard. If it was, you would have spontaneously dropped dead by now... Humans are naturally lazy, and if you couple that with a warped sense of entitlement? Misery. Life's hard! Everybody got their own mess to deal with, you just have to keep on looking out for number 1 and make sure you work toward your happiness. Idk bout you, but it would be retarded of me to give up now. I'VE COME SO FRICKEN FAR, AND FOUGHT SO FRICKEN HARD! I AM AMAZING, and so are you...

[Sadguy7]

i cant do this anymore - i know only in death wil lall this misery end

and i have no desire to do anything anymore or keep trying to live

[Trippin2.0]

If that were completely true, trust me, you wouldnt be posting. Posting means there's some fight left in you, and dammit! We will fight with you!!!!

[BlueInanna]

Originally Posted by Sadguy7

its all about struggle and survival of the fittest and i cant do it anymore
i cant do anything and everything is too hard

humans have survived because of our diversity imo.

don't compare yourself to others - it's pointless, makes me more depressed. unless - you can look at the person comparing and see things in their life that you'd like to cultivate in your life, and then think of ways to go about doing that. but remember we are all supposed to be different. of course, there are twins, which are just a groovey thing of nature.

i know right now you feel like you can't do anything and everything is too hard. and i have this too. isn't it fun to have add and bp??? nope not really. but it's what we've got.

try to relax, and give yourself time to wrap your head around everything. and before you know it you'll have some brilliant idea and feel like the golden god, king of the world. another up is bound to happen if we are in a down right now.

[BNLsMOM]

Originally Posted by Sadguy7

i cant do this anymore - i know only in death wil lall this misery end

and i have no desire to do anything anymore or keep trying to live

I think that by posting here you are looking for help. I am taking your post seriously and I suggest you call 911 or go to the ER. Would you do that for yourself?

[sweepy62]

I feel that way as well I see no way out right now but yet I don't want to die but then I do and I have the means to do it but as long as we have a little fight in us we will be able to as for me I don't know yet sending u hugs

[Sadguy7]

I never thought things would be this bad for me

Like I never ever in wildest dreams thought my life would be like this

[treehugger727]

Originally Posted by Sadguy7

I never thought things would be this bad for me

Like I never ever in wildest dreams thought my life would be like this

Hang in there, Sad.

Like blue says, there is another up around the bend. If it is too much for you to stomach right now then maybe the ER isn't a bad idea. At least call your pdoc and see what the response is there. Sending you big hugs and healing vibes.

[Sadguy7]

I went to see the doc today, didn't help one bit.

Think it's do stupid, all the people who made fun of me my whole life are getting degrees and good job, and I got ditched by my parents as barely even have 1$ to ride the bus, so sitting at the cafe bench crying and waiting for the bus which comes in 2 hours.

I don't even know if this is the right stop but it is the last one so idk what I will do

And looking at all the people at the cafe all laughing with their friends

People say don't compare, but why am I so screwed?

[Clinte89]

Thats tough sad. I always hate watching happy people when Im down which is why Im upstairs all day today. But Im sorry your so down and blue is right hang in there another up is on its way itll be there soon. Here to hoping you get feeling better.

[~Christina]

Sad ..... Remember what I said ... UNACCEPTABLE !

That said .. Yesterday you weren't feeling great but it certainly wasn't as bad as today .. But days ago you were at a huge low .. Can you see how each day can and possibly be different? will is alwayus be like this? No but it does take time for the blasted meds to work .. Just deep breathe...Alot.

Just starting your meds is just that " starting" nothing works overnite .. Altho we all wish they did .. And oh I wish they would work right damn now for you !

You know how to reach me .. anytime ,I mean that ..

Please take care of you ...Please

[BlueInanna]

aww Sad sorry no help at dr.'s ... what's with them - can't they find you some meds that help? took me a couple years, but i do like the lithium,welbutrin,adderall,clonopin cocktail (i never thought i'd be on psych meds, but here we are).... i didnt bother taking the adderall today cuz i know i'm just sad and won't help me focus anyway in this state.

you can compare if you want, your choice... but we say try not to cuz we've been there it's just that it can make you feel shittier than you're already feeling. seems you're already down in the dumps, you don't need more **** on your plate comparing can turn into dwelling and regrets and beating yourself up even worse.

i know what you mean about watching everyone else doing college, getting degrees, good jobs. i was the only one in my group of friend's who still doesn't have a college degree.

i have to go pick up son, be back later. please keep posting so i know you're ok

[Sadguy7]

Just an update, walked 5 miles and found another bus stop which I think is right, it comes in an hour so waiting at McDonald's across the street.

I hate downtown area, cuz the college is here and it's filled with pretty girls which makes me depressed cuz I know I'm alone forever, and ironic cuz up north here the guys dont look that great and I know if I had my brain right id have a super fine chick...!!

Hoping parents let me in the house when I get home, they pulled this crap before and I spent 2 weeks in a homeless shelter.

[ellipsisdream]

Sending Hugs your way... please keep us updated tonight. Do not hesitate to use crisis line or the ER or any other available resource to keep you safe. I know it does not feel like it right now, but it *does* get better. You can push through this. You are not alone.

[Sadguy7]

Sitting at McDonalds and an old homeless guy came in and bought a 1$ burger with a bus map in hand, just like me

Maybe he is bipolar too and tried all his life to get better and is still here

I been trying to get better for years as well and I'm 23 now, how do I know it will get better? Gonna go back to the stop now, bus should come soon

[Clinte89]

Just have faith it will get better, thats really all you can do and its really hard to do when your down. Just hang in there. And stay safe. Keep us updated.

[Sadguy7]

Was at the stop and ten I saw sign busses stop at 6pm and I was too late...nothing left to do do started walking home, I'm new here and it got dark and I couldn't find the right street....finally made it home, I was so scared and sad and crying, my feet hurt like crazy.
All together I walked about 20 miles today and no food since lunch + huge depression

Parents let me in and I'm in bed now.

[hamster-bamster]

Originally Posted by Sadguy7

I never thought things would be this bad for me

Like I never ever in wildest dreams thought my life would be like this

Could you elaborate on that? List the difficulties you have to deal with? We'll listen.

[Victoria'smom]

If your parents wont let you come home please go to the ER

[Clinte89]

Well look at the upside, your parents let you in. Sorry again your having such a rough day but maybe elaborate hamster is got it nailed we will listen.

[Sadguy7]

I realized yesterday life is hard, but I'm stronger than I think

When abandoned I was crying an had no idea what to do. But I manged to learn the bus routes, found a map and even when I missed the bus I walked 20 miles to get home

I think that's impressive considering I havnt been active physically since like April, besides the muscle work outs I do, but hardly any cardio outside of porn sessions

But idk im gonna try college cuz i think I'm getting more depressed just sitting home all day and doing nothing

And being around the college people downtown Made me feel alive again before I went crazy in spring semester
Plus downtown area is pretty

Idk, maybe life is hard, but humans are strong, so it's not too hard

Docs say meds should help in couple weeks

[BNLsMOM]

I am glad you are feeling more positive today. I hope that if you are in danger, you will recognize that, and go to the ER. I do hope those meds kick in for you soon.