[jesusplay]

I had hypomania for a day followed by 3 days of normal, then bam depression.

My SI is like a constant craving for lets say chocolate, I'm not going to eat the chocolate because I'm on a diet, but still the craving is there.

can anyone relate?

[JoyDivision7680]

Self-injury? I have recently tried it, it can be a relief even if for a short period of time, but I kinda feel the urge to slash my wrist.

[Victoria'smom]

Yes, I can relate. Mine seems to be in relation to whether I feel I can gather and say my scary thoughts out loud.

[wildflowerchild25]

I started SI when I was fourteen. I'm twenty seven now, and even in the six years when I was functional and resisted it, I still thought about it at least once a day. I don't think I will ever have a day where it doesn't fly through my mind at least briefly. Because no matter what I'm feeling I'll always have the thoughts.

It's frustrating, much like an addiction. I'll be perfectly fine and then break a glass by accident, then suddenly my mind is imagining taking the broken glass against myself. Happened just three weeks ago but I actually followed through and I was only slightly down that day...it was just impulse.

I wish I had never done it in the first place but too late now I guess.

[txbipolar]

I defiantly believe my SI is my eating. I do great eating healthy when I'm in a "normal" phase, but if I'm too up or too down it's all junk for the truck eating. I'm very overweight and heart issues run rampant in my family history so I'm just setting myself up for a heart attack. Then I think of my two young children growing up with out me and I can't believe I've let myself go! Trigger depression there.