[fbeuk]

I am a writer. I always have a different way of seeing things, but I struggle with knowing real inspiration, good ideas from my manic craziness. It is so hard to tell the difference, not so sure that my manic writing is a bad thing as long as I go back and clean it up a bit when I am no longer manic. Anyone else have creativity confussion?

Originally Posted by fbeuk

I am a writer. I always have a different way of seeing things, but I struggle with knowing real inspiration, good ideas from my manic craziness. It is so hard to tell the difference, not so sure that my manic writing is a bad thing as long as I go back and clean it up a bit when I am no longer manic. Anyone else have creativity confussion?

I do. My writing style is different than it used to be when I was younger. My inspirations are different. So I can't determine if the stuff that comes out is brilliant or really, really bad. Doesn't make much sense to feel this way. I just end up throwing them out usually. Oh well.

[faerie_moon_x]

What I've noticed is that my ability to write is diminishing. It takes great effort for me to get ahold of my thoughts.

I'm pretty sure I was manic in the past during my writing, but my writing was always pretty good if a little long winded. I finished a novel but it's 150,000 words which is too long for the genre, so it's unplublished and will require a lot of editing.

[Trippin2.0]

There's a difference between brilliance and manic art? I honestly did not know this My view? Take it as it is, enjoy it, and milk it as much as possible! Like you said, you clean it up after to make sure its sensible, so why question what it is and where it comes from. I dont see how it matters. Unless you are of cors still unaccepting of your bp dx, then I can see how you may struggle with embracing it...

[venusss]

I have a theory that bipolarness causes us to see things others don't... therefore creates something unusual and brilliant. Art is in differentness... that is what makes it special.

[BlueInanna]

Originally Posted by fbeuk

I am a writer. I always have a different way of seeing things, but I struggle with knowing real inspiration, good ideas from my manic craziness. It is so hard to tell the difference, not so sure that my manic writing is a bad thing as long as I go back and clean it up a bit when I am no longer manic. Anyone else have creativity confussion?

even if you were manic when you wrote something fabulous, that was still you, it is still real inspiration, it is real. i had the same sort of confusion for awhile and soul searching and found out everything i did, everything i created, manic or not still came through me. bp dx sent me to an identity crisis i think, but i'm back.

[Anika.]

Yes sometimes I do have the confusion, and although it doesn't matter per say where it is coming from, it is still coming from you, the thing I have had trouble with is this....

If it is born from mania, or certain qualities of it that I want, and I am not manic often, then how can a tap into this same aspect that I am looking for when not manic? There are many different ways and methods I use to create, and when I am manic, it is a different quality than when I am not.. not better or worse, just different. So in that sense it makes a difference to me. And I think we can tap into it when not manic, it is within us somewhere.

It is your brilliance, whether manic or not, like everyone said, so try to embrace it and enjoy it..

[faerie_moon_x]

Originally Posted by Anika.

Yes sometimes I do have the confusion, and although it doesn't matter per say where it is coming from, it is still coming from you, the thing I have had trouble with is this....

If it is born from mania, or certain qualities of it that I want, and I am not manic often, then how can a tap into this same aspect that I am looking for when not manic? There are many different ways and methods I use to create, and when I am manic, it is a different quality than when I am not.. not better or worse, just different. So in that sense it makes a difference to me. And I think we can tap into it when not manic, it is within us somewhere.

It is your brilliance, whether manic or not, like everyone said, so try to embrace it and enjoy it..

This is a question I have too. Where does the muse hide when mania goes away?

I've been told that the better the art, the closer it resembles truth and nature. I'm a better reader of good writing than anything else.

I admire your talent and hope you will continue to develop it.

Do you read the works of some of the really talented people like Thoms Hardy (whose imagery is beautiful in "The Return of the Native", Henry Makepeace Thackery, Charles Dickens, etc., and many, many others)
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Have been so busy this week. Glad to see everyone doing his/her thing here.

Take care.

Genetic

i love my writing, but have not written something in a very long time.

i don't get creativity confution no.. i'm always sure of what i'm writing about

[cocoabeans]

Originally Posted by dark_heart_x

This is a question I have too. Where does the muse hide when mania goes away?

In the gutter and under the shadow of that ***** called depression or in the mud er, I mean meds.

The muse is always there, I think, in gifted people. It just requires the proper atmosphere to do its magic.

[BipolaRNurse]

My muse likes to come out and take a dump on my head when I'm at one extreme or the other, rarely when I'm in a neutral zone. This past June I wrote an essay called "After the Whirlwind", a metaphorical look at mania......which is now in the Creative Corner forum (last seen on page 5, if anyone cares to check it out). I'm what I like to call a "semi-professional writer", because I write regularly and sometimes even for pay, but I've never hit the big time except for a couple of commentaries in the Los Angeles Times a number of years ago.

[fbeuk]

Wow! I am glad I'm not the only one. I have always tended to be more hypomanic than depressed, which is why it took so long to get diagnosed. I also am struggling with who I am now if what I've always been before is bipolar. My husband says I'm the same person, just tamed down in a good way (like not taking a sledge hammer to my kitchen walls because I get a great idea) I agree that I think because of the way my brain works that I see things and think things others wouldn't. I also think people who aren't like me are boring : ) Lol...still working on accepting the "medicated me." Thanks for all the input!

[faerie_moon_x]

Originally Posted by cocoabeans

In the gutter and under the shadow of that ***** called depression or in the mud er, I mean meds.

Only mud for me...