The Roller Coaster Isn't Fun Anymore...

I am really not sure if I am experiencing a mixed episode of if I'm finally starting to crash. For about three weeks, I've been extremely manic, hallucinations and all. For the past couple days, I still feel manic, but I'm getting incredibly irritable (which in itself I know can come with mania) and my thoughts have gotten darker. Not sui per se but like I'm losing my mind and the up part of my roller coaster isn't fun anymore.

I actually bought a book the other day on bp but everytime I try to sit and read it, I can't seem to focus enough to make it past a couple paragraphs. With everything I've been doing this past week to try and burn energy, my body is screaming and every muscle hurts but I can't seem to slow down.

My pdoc took me completely off my AD last week, and put me on Seroquel and Klonopin and I'm not sure that they are helping any, although the hallucinations seem to have gone for the most part. Plus the Seroquel forces sleep on me, so I can't even count on sleep deprevation to bring me down.

I just don't know what to do. I used to enjoy mania, now I feel like it's killing me.

Sorry your in rough sorts, I feel ya there sometime mania is by fun I think they call is dysphoric mania or something like that. I hope you get to feeling better I don't have much advice but plenty of s

Hi OS,

I never enjoyed mania. It's all irritation for me too. I would try to cut back on caffeine and avoid any people in your life that can get under your skin. Insomnia was always a problem I had and lack of sleep just adds to the irritation Does your pdoc give you any valium or an anti-anxiety med to take?

Take care of yourself!

Peace & Hugs,

TnT