...first up I just want to express how grateful I am to my friends here, you are all special to me and I don't mean "looney like special"...( not that there's anything wrong with that! )
...forgive me for abandoning you for a bit there I was sincerely messed up and achieved levels of personal freakdom that I'm sure you can relate to.

...I really don't know how it works or how it don't work....this mentally ill experience?...but sure as heck I cannot outrun it escape it crush it into a million peices like I want to...

cos I cannot get ahead of myself...hide from myself...dis-integrate!

just when it's gotten so damn bad it simply can't get no worse!

....and it's hell confusing and the brain is exploding with negative crap..

and I can't even understand what crying means no more it just hurts way too deep for that!

...I just hope all I got for an atom of peace....soon I got meself a molecule ...then a bit further on I got an element of "ok"... (sorry to go all chemistry on you)

...anyway I just wanted to pop in and say hello and I miss you and I hope you be doin ok.

love, monkey

[manic most days]

AND then when you can't take one more thing BOOM something else!!! Hugs girl hope you get to feelin better soon.

[~Christina]

James

**** Sitting back holding your hand *****

It is damn good to hear from you Monkey

[moremi]

So glad your back, I miss reading your posts

[BlueInanna]

You have been missed, monkey love.

[Trippin2.0]

((((((Jamesy!!))))) great to have you back ole friend!

So glad, to see you are back! Good to know you're feeling better too.

Thank you so much for checking in James! My imagination gets running and I get worried, so thank you!!! I hope you find a lot more than a molecule of peace. You deserve it, kinda like a weeks vacation, or longer even. I wish there was a med that would give a week or a month off of symptoms. guess that would be a cure then. lol.... thanks for checking in

[kindachaotic]

...........

When I saw you had a thread, I literally shouted out, "Yea!!! dubblemonkey!!!"
Special in the other sense is fine with me -- we'll just call it "mentally interesting".
Sorry to hear that you are feeling beyond crying (alas, I know it well, and call it that). I hope that we on the forums can at least break that up for you with a smile, giggle or warm feeling. Are you subscribed to the thread "something that made me laugh today?"

The red panda (think that's what it is) one on this page cracked me up good:
http://forums.psychcentral.com/showt...171249&page=66
Also discovered when I downloaded it onto my own computer, it could be brought up as a "preview", which allowed me to make him dance and go backwards and stuff. Watched it over and over and over, giggling all the while.

Really really great to see you again!!!!

[faerie_moon_x]

Glad you're doing a bit better. It's a long road. I understand that just when you think you're going to break, you have to keep going. Just consider that's probably how humans survived being cavemen. We're stronger than we give ourselves credit for.