[tnlibrarian]

I'm going to call my psych first and give this a few more days but I feel like I am losing my mind. My psych pulled me off 75 mg of Seroquel (regular), put me on 40 mg of Geodon and doubled my dosage of Lamictal from 200 to 400 mg. I am such a mess right now I am seriously thinking I may need to be admitted to the psych hospital.

I'm nauseated, constantly burning up and shaking like crazy. All day yesterday and part of the night I kept hearing a little girl talk--at times I couldn't understand her, at other times she was talking about what sounded like her cat. Then most of the night last night I kept hearing a cat meow. If I had run into a cat outside our house this morning I think I would have thrown it over the fence. (Not really, but you know what I mean). I've heard voices on and off today but I can't understand them. Yesterday was the first time I actually understood the voices.

I keep swinging between being furious and crying. I just had a total breakdown in front of my husband. The kids are in bed, I was putting laundry in and he kept asking what was wrong. I started crying and just kept telling him I don't know and I think I'm losing what is left of my mind. I need to take a shower and I thought to myself I need to take my razor out of the shower because I want to hurt myself. Not kill myself but self injure.

Is this withdrawl from the Seroquel being stopped cold turkey? From my Lamictal suddenly going from 200 mg to 400 mg? I really don't want to go into the hospital---I have an eight year old, five year old and one year old, my husband has enough stress from work and his mom to choke a horse and my parents will raise hell with me if I do because they have "enough to worry about" and "nothing is wrong" with me.

If you've read this far, God bless you. I think I'll go cry some more and drown my sorrows in diet peach Snapple. Or hit stuff. Or go to sleep. Or stay up all night. Whatever sounds good from one moment to the next.

[manic most days]

I think maybe you should just place a call to your Dr now. I am not sure how ur Dr works but mine is available 24/7. If it is a crisis they will come out to the house, doesn't matter what time of the day or night.

[MommaR]

Becca, Honey, please call your Pdoc! If yours has a 24 hr hotline like mine- call it NOW! I am certain the change in meds is responsible for what your feeling and the Dr needs to make adjustments immediately!!!!!

[MommaR]

Originally Posted by manic most days

I think maybe you should just place a call to your Dr now. I am not sure how ur Dr works but mine is available 24/7. If it is a crisis they will come out to the house, doesn't matter what time of the day or night.

We sound mockingbirds, Manic

[tnlibrarian]

No 24 hour number for mine. I have the number for mobile crisis but if I call them I get admitted. I'm going to call in the morning but she's typically there on only Tuesday, Thursday and Friday. If I can't get in touch with her tomorrow and things worsen I won't have any choice but to call mobile crisis or see if I can get in to see someone at the outpatient facility. I like her but this is making me question her judgment.

[MommaR]

Well I wouldnt throw the baby out w the bath water over this one bad judgement in med change. I think most pdocs are really just as unsure what exactly to do with us as we are. Lol. But I hope you get thru in the morning.

[tnlibrarian]

What basically happened is my husband told me to tell her he's concerned about how I've been doing because I seem to be rapid cycling, having a lot of mixed states and having a lot of mania. She talked to me for awhile, asking me about hallucinations, how I'm sleeping, my moods, etc and she said I have, without question, gotten considerably worst than last time and we need to make some big changes. I don't question the changes because something needs or needed to be changed in my meds. I question the way she did it. I have trust issues with doctors because I ended up in the psych hospital because my PCP, who refused to send me to a psychdoc, pulled me off Prozac over weight loss, refused to send me to a psych after me asking numerous times for months, and put me on Prestiq. The Prestiq totally pushed me over the edge. I feel like I'm there all over again.

[~Christina]

Becca

I think the huge med change you had is causing you all kinds of hell. But you really arent safe in my opinion .. You arent really able to make good sound choices. You stated self harm... trust me self harm can go to far .

Is it the best time for you to go inpatient ? hell no there is never a good time ..BUT if you dont take of you how care you take care of your family ..

Please Please Please get help now .. Do it for You ,your kids and husband.

[Tsunamisurfer]

Becca, I ache for you. This is seriously rough. I see your family pressure for you to stick it out, but you are definitely showing signs of danger that, unless dealt with urgently, will in all likelihood hurt them in the future.

In my experience, the sudden withdrawal of Seroquel and various other neuroleptics is likely to bring on psychosis and instability.

Originally Posted by tnlibrarian

Is this withdrawl from the Seroquel being stopped cold turkey? From my Lamictal suddenly going from 200 mg to 400 mg? I really don't want to go into the hospital ...

[Clinte89]

I'm really sorry to hear about your situation I think it's defiantly caused by drastic med change. If you feel you need to go to the psych hospital than go for it, what's best for you will be best for your family as well. Take care of yourself first because if it keeps getting worse your family may also end up suffering wih what's going on, we aren't as transparent as we think we are. Best wishes and ill send good thoughts your way. Get better soon