that special place

ever noticed, that there is a special place that we can all go to. triggered by music, or a fond memory...

it's like a peaceful, sense of loss, but okay.... kind of like the depressive feeling without being depressed. a sad, solemn, but almost nice feeling.

it's a content, sad, expressionate, acceptance of loss, like remembering when everything was new, was different, but now knowing better kind of feeling.

like remembering when we were kids, and the world was okay. it feels like remembering the calm before the storm...

anyone else ever get this. it's not depression and it's not a mood swing... just a feeling.

I actually don't get this.

Nothing was ever okay in my life. I mean, I have happy memories, but they all have shadows in them. Like i remember going to Disney Land with my mom, and then I remember that was our last trip. You know?

I kinda get it. I've tried to hold on to some of that magic from when I was a kid.

Tho I am sure glad I am not a kid, wasn't a good time, that was the storm, I think I have the calm now. But some of it was. Like the snow, and worms, caterpillars. I still get very giddy about the snow and stuff, cause without that magic, ohh life would be really bad. I can still get excited over a glass of water... where has it been, dinosaurs drank that exact same water likely.. pretty neat.

But the snow, that is my place. It's not sad tho, well in a way, it brings death, but it's just so powerful to me. It's death of the warmth, the sun, the plants, but it's magnificent, beautiful, peaceful, even in the storm.

it is more of a feeling of regret, sad and solemn.... like the calm after the storm. didn't mean it to be good feelings. just sad and solemn.. but almost magical