[iluvdukie1]

Today has been pretty good overall. When I woke up, I was depressed, I could tell. I was being really slow, sluggish, and I felt tired overall. I didn't really want to talk to anyone at all. But then after school got started, I started to get really aggravated, and I mean aggravated. We were playing this one review game, and both me and my other teammate had the answer. So, the teacher asked who was going to give it to her, we both said "Me." At the same time. Well, she chose him. He got it wrong, and I would have gotten it right. This completely pissed me off, I almost started to cry. I hope they couldn't tell. Then, I got to my next class. I noticed I started to get more cheery and excited. Before I knew it, I was hypomanic and happy. This awesome feeling was good for gym, it allowed me to participate really well and enjoy myself. After I became hypomanic, I was SUPER talkative and goofy. It felt pretty good though. Next, I went to my history class. I was still really jittery and stuff, so I was abnormally talking. Then of course, I had to go to the nurse and get a physical, causing me to be really aggravated again since I was going to miss stuff. Once I got back, I was just happy again. Next, I went to my science, Halloween party. This was fun. At this point, I was extremely hypomanic. I could NOT sit still, I was giggly, I was shaking, I kept talking, I kept smacking people to bug them. I was to the point that when I would try to eat, since it would stick to my mouth, I felt as if it was taking to long and I would become impatient, resulting in not being able to eat anything. I could only drink stuff, which I drank like 4 little cups of pop. I felt great, but also a little bothered by it. After this, I remained the exact same way, but went to band. Then, I got to mess with a lot more people. I was punching, smacking, all sorts of stuff. I kept grabbing onto people, hugging them, and never let go. I would jump on them too. I started screaming out stupid stuff like "Twix!!". Then I felt exhausted and tired. But, as soon as I got to lunch, my energy shot way up. The ENTIRE time I was shouting random things to everyone in site, I was hitting people still, and I was trying to hand out McDonalds salt and pepper packets, which I had collected from a previous hypomanic episode. I was ridiculous. Then, I went to reading, becoming aggravated again, the teacher had marked a question wrong that I got right and she wouldn't look up for me to tell her. After she addressed the problem, I started to be less irritated. Next, I went to English. The most eventful class of the day. I went in, took a quiz which I think I might have failed. I compared my answers with someone next to me before handing it in (but we didn't cheat) and we had the EXACT same answers. That person is actually someone with bipolar disorder. However, afterwards, I was SUPER talkative, loud, running around the room. I kept carry my friends around the room on my back, I kept taking this one kids shoe off, my friend tied the other one to the desk. I also kept "transforming into weapon form" like an idiot, resulting in me slamming into a desk, which just made me laugh even more. After this, I brought up a quiz we were supposed to take. Only like 5 people participated in it. Me, the girl that I said was bipolar earlier, and a few others. I won a lot, getting prizes. then I went home, happy as hell. I got home, blared music, and then did some studying and homework. After this, I became slightly depressed and irritated. I was really tired, didn't want to talk, my body started aching, then I began to video chat with my one friend. This resulted in me becoming hypomanic again. I felt awesome, talked a bunch, and started to have racing thoughts like I was all day. Then, at 10:00 P.M., when we got off I got a shower. Then I started to play minecraft, leading us to now. Now I am shaking as a result of being nervous about sending my mom the letter in a little bit. Could you please comment telling me what you think of this? Also, if this sounded like a full Manic episode, not hypomania, please tell me. I cannot tell at this point which one it is.

[Anika.]

What is your age iluvdukie? Sorry I am not sure if you had said before. This is a bit tough, to me kinda sounds a bit like normal teenage behaviour ( today's experience, not all of it ) But I am not in your head, so I don't know all what is going on in there. The diagnostic criteria for full blown mania is that it lasts continuously for at least one week, unless hospitalization is required.

From my experience with bipolar 1, I get both hypomania, and mania, hypomania is usually not as long lasting as a manic episode. It could be hypomania, but I am not a dr. the other thing I noted was that you said you has four small cups of pop, sugar can have a major effect on mood too.

hopefully you will be able to see a pdoc soon to get this all sorted out. I think the letter was wise, and she handled it ok, time to just breathe, it will come together.

[iluvdukie1]

I am 13, but this behavior just started recently, like being THIS hyper. Also, I don't think it was the pop, I can drink a full monster energy drink and it does nothing to me, also, I was like this before I drank it. I get like this on days I don't have any caffeine too.

[Anika.]

Yes, sorry, I edited to say not all your experiences, just what you are talking about here today. It is really hard to say with your age, which I know is mega frustrating. A dr should be able to help you get it more sorted out. It's not unusal to change energy levels at this age, that is all I meant.

The sugar tho, well it can seem like it has no effect, can have a big effect. Energy drinks are not so good for bipolar, as they can trigger a shift in moods, been known to happen, excess caffeine, can trigger mania or hypo. So even tho sometimes it might effect you, othertimes it might not, and that is bipolar, unpredictable. Anyways, i'm not lectureing you about drinking pop or energy drinks, just be aware that if you do have bipolar, that can be something to watch.

I hope you get some answers soon, I know being in limbo isnt very fun.

[Trippin2.0]

Lots of people start to experience these things at that age.My nieces have rapid mood shifts thru out the day.They are 12,15 &17.The youngest and the oldest shift rapidly in much the way you describe.It COULD very well be hormones gone mad(which is what I pray for)My point is,If its disrupting your life and way too much to handle,then yes,seek help.If its not,why fix it if it aint broke? Do you always like kidding around the way you do with the slapping and jumping, Or do you hate it?

[iluvdukie1]

Well, not always. I become depressed a lot and not want to do anything, so it is only sometimes.

[Trippin2.0]

I meant do you enjoy the times you are hyper, slapping people and jumping on them? Is it pleasant? Or do you have physical symptoms that go with it that are not so nice, or down right nasty? When you are clowning around, do you want to stop, but cant? or do you choose to carry on this way?

[iluvdukie1]

I usually choose to carry on this way, but sometimes I don't even realize that I have been doing it so harshly until things start to settle down. I choose to mess with them, but I don't control how intense I am with it.

[Me,Lately]

I started experiencing depression around your age which was later diagnosed as Bipolar II, but mine was triggered by an event and so might not be so applicable. It's tough at that age to separate what is "normal for a teenager" from what might be an indicator of something like bipolar... I remember I really struggled with that concept, all the time actually, and how I felt different but didn't know anything else so how do I say what is Normal and what is Illness?

I'm not sure if what you described is mania or hypomania... In my experience, it feels more like I can't control my actions, even if I know they are inappropriate or uncalled for. When I was like that in high school I would hit people--not nicely or playfully, but because I was so irritated to the point of losing control.
I think that might have been what Trippin2.0 was getting at...?

[Trippin2.0]

Yes thats exactly what I was trying to get at. I've had pleasant non-stop talking,jumping dancing, I 've slapped and bitten people due to urges, strong impulsive urges that drove me nutz! Still get them, but time has helped. I've grown up alot in 10yrs, so I kick my urge's asses (mostly) these days. Aggravation, aggitation, irritation, I know them so well. Had to contain myself at work today, coz I was gonna hi-five that bloody girl in the face with my fist! And I'm just way too pretty for jail!

[iluvdukie1]

Haha, I almost punch people all of the time. Like today, I pushed this one kid into a fire extinguisher pretty hard... It even broke..

[Trippin2.0]

Why would you even do that, AND enjoy it? I dont get it

[iluvdukie1]

Haha, I honestly don't know either. There is a lot of weird stuff I have done and enjoyed, I surprise myself all of the time.

[~Christina]

Hopefully you can get some therapy and learn to control your impulses.

[iluvdukie1]

Yeah, hopefully! I am actually meeting with someone on Tuesday, so maybe we could talk about it.

[~Christina]

Good . Definatly let them know about the way you are physical towards others.

[iluvdukie1]

I will make sure I do that, thanks! I also tend to call people names, a lot. Some inappropriate, some rude. I tend to do this one a bit more intensely if the person is messing with me.

[Trippin2.0]

Your post reminds me of a South Park episode where Cartman gets diagnosed with Tourettes,so he can yell obscene words without getting in trouble... Honestly,you should be more worried about your manners than moods. There's NO excuse for being mean to random people, if you're seeing a therapist, I suggest rather talking about how you enjoy mistreating your peers.Yes, I've been mean to others, but felt bad afterward, and apologized. I never found it funny,and dont understand why you continue to laugh about it