Gawd, sO stressed!

Left work early yesterday, got home at 5pm and slept until morning. Didn't go in today, just wanted to do NOTHING, but its not going very well. Mum wanted me to go grocery shopping, which is stressful, hate budgeting, and didnt wanna remind her that I spent an extra R500 on HER expenses, which left me broke. I dont know how to ask for it back. I'm the 1 that has to figure out how to run a household on peanuts, then she acts like its ALL ON HER! ugh, when I rectified her, she told me I'm WRONG!!!

Told her that even tho she does worry, I'm the one who has to figure it out! I'm the one who has to cover any extra debt she incurs to keep us afloat, I'm the 1 who scratches my head in the store, and the fact that she doesn't even notice makes it SHITTIER! I dedicate 12hrs of everyday to see that we can eat, have electricity and running water, I sacrifice paycheck after paycheck without so much as a thank you! I ask nothing in return,and my efforts go unnoticed. It is STRESSING ME OUT!!! Ugh,just a vent

Idk whats worse, being stressed out at work or at home. I just want 1 ****ing day FREE from worry! I'm 28 but I feel 60. I just want a break A small tiny break from all this worry and stress, but I cant have one can I, its my life I'm so mentally and physically drained its not even remotely funny. Then to have your mother invalidate all you do, it just hurts I just need a breather, or my dad back, and I cant have either

I'm tired... So so tired. My neck is so stiff, feels like it cant hold up my fat head properly. My shoulders ache, my body is so tired, so so very tired. Like when you have the flu, achy and tired,except I dont have the flu... Idk how I'm going to haul myself to work tomorrow or ever again after talking to my mom... Whats the use anyway. Or maybe I should start handing over my paycheck physically and letting them figure it out! I'm just so over this ********. I didnt ask for any of this, it just became mine

I'm sorry you feel so stressed Trippin, and I wish I could help. Hope you feel better soon, and that you get some rest after work.

Thanks MG, I didn't go in. Trying to lose myself in a murder mystery, but I cant pay attention to the words on the page...

Sorry, I skipped that. I find my escape in books, too. Having problems concentrating as well when I'm stressed. Murder mysteries are great, I'm reading P.D. James at present, it's addictive

No worries, I presumed you're also having concentration trouble I'm trying to read Val McDermid, it looks good, but can't seem to get into it. Read 4 fantasy novels last week by Nora Roberts, her books are VERY addictive, maybe I used up my concentration quota...

I'm sorry your Mom is putting you in a bad situation. The economy is really scary right now and my Mom has no clue how hard some people have it losing their houses, jobs etc right now.

I hope you feel better soon.

Peace & Hugs,

TnT

I dont even think she does it intentionally, but how can an intelligent person be so damn BLIND! Thanks for letting me vent guys, needed to blow off some steam, I was aleady banging stuff in frustration, to 'voice' my irritaion, and the next step would be throwing stuff, so glad I intervened and posted instead... Reading has gotten easier too, so I think its subsiding a bit, but could do with a massage for my aching muscles... Thanks again for listening to me vent.

I dont even think she does it intentionally, but how can an intelligent person be so damn BLIND! Thanks for letting me vent guys, needed to blow off some steam, I was aleady banging stuff in frustration, to 'voice' my irritation, and the next step would be throwing stuff, so glad I intervened and posted instead... Reading has gotten easier too, so I think its subsiding a bit, but could do with a massage for my aching muscles... Thanks again for listening to me vent.

I could not either - I tried Agatha Christie for stress relief and I liked her when I was young... now, cannot pay attention to the words on the page, for the life of me!

Your mother is treating you unfairly, and unfairness is the prime source of anger, I think.

You're right Hammy, it is unfair, and I'm sure that's why I'm so riled up... Have to get an early night if I want ANY chance in making it to work tomorrow... Ugh, this whole business is just so unappealing, like I dont see the point in going back to work AT ALL. Logically I know that's stupid, I have Jordan to take care of, but along with my daughter goes everything else... I just wanna say 'Fk it!' and run off! Yeah right

I have this exact same problem with my mother-in-law... she's currently a month behind on rent and if she doesn't catch up this month my dad will give her the 30 day notice to vacate. It's extremely stressful to deal with it, but I can't afford to pay her portion.

Sorry you're having a rough time, Trippin. I was caregiver for my father, and then my mother. I understand. Hugs. I hope you find some time or place to get to that peaceful spot in your head and uncompress a little bit.

Trippin Im sorry you have to deal with all this s hit.. I can't think of a solution or even some decent advice off the top of my head . I will keep thinking. Just know you are heard, Im so damn sorry you are in a ridiculous situation.

I agree with injustice being one of the main sources of anger. Your anger is absolutely justified. Hope you do get rest Trippin and can make it to work. I spend too many nights worrying about making it to work next day too.

I'm at home... idk why exactly, obviously not for a very good reason or I'd know. Maybe its the gale forced wind, I hate leaving my house in those... Idk, its like I dont want my life anymore, not that I want death, I'm just SO over this setup, and what other OPTIONS. Thanks for all the support guys, its really priceless

Nobody would envy your setup, Trippin.

(((((((Trippin))))))))

I'm like a bloody ostrich, hiding my head in the sand, like a temporary shut-down. Not talking to family at home, thankfully they are leaving me alone and not asking questions. I'm not doing anything coz I'm so damn tired... Will have to get my act together soon tho, I cant have 3 consecutive absences without a Dr's note... Gawd I hate my life right now, unappreciated AND stuck Thanks for all the hugs and support you guys

Awww Trippin. I am sorry you are so stressed, and not being appreciated. Yikes!!! I can very well imagine.. I hope you get or got some sleep or rest for the day. Hopefully it will be a bit better. Your set up can change.. one day it will change.. just keep working at it. Send that energy out there.. it will be heard eventually. I will do the same.. heard something about power in numbers.. And just rest.. you work so hard. You will not be stuck forever..

Remember when you were looking for a job, seemed nothing was ever gonna happen.. and then it did. I know the job probably seems like a freaking pain right now, but when you needed it most it was answered. You worked hard for that. You are working hard now too.. it will not go unanswered forever. I know you need to catch a break, I have always known that.. Honestly I don't get how this stuff is dealt out either... all I do know is that you have the strength a 1000 men or more.. you are mightier than the sword that is dishing it out.

Thanks sis First good tears I've cried in days... You're right, the tide will turn, it just has to at some point. Thank you for believing in me.

I always believe in you sista... here is a really good song when you need to rise that power back to the top.. ... always makes me feel BIG

Good tears are good.. I had some today.. a few times.. and some bad ones.. It's gotta turn nothing really ever stays the same. We don't likely have hardly any of the atoms in our body that we did when we were born ..

BIG Thanks makes sense what you say about our cells and everchanging things... Added the video to my play list, awesome song