was worried this would happen... :(

I can't write. I have the story right there but I can't get it out!

Yesterday we had Christmas lunch at work, first time in 3 years that the whole office had it together. We always used to have it together, it was so fun. But the last 3 years they did it by department. So I looked forward to this for 3 years! Then, it's time... and I crash right in the middle of it and just want to cry. It wasn't fun, just a let down.

Then, I don't feel like I have a home any more. I am tired of my mother-in-law living with us. She's judgemental (won't admit it,) and now doesn't want to pay her rent any more, so there is always tension. She's a month behind and isn't going to pay, I'm sure, so my dad is going to give her the 30 days notice. More drama that I can't take! More drama for my dad's bad heart!

And, having her there she is always picking stuff up and putting it somewhere and it's not where I want it. She's trying to re-arrange everything. She does 1-2 loads of laundry EVERY DAY, and it's pissing me off! (It is her laundry.) Or, you use a towel one time she washes it and in this house we believe in conserving water! So towels don't get washed every day!

My husband also wants her out, he makes no secret to her about it. I just keep praying she finally is sick of it and tries to get a place with her brother.

I hate not having my home any more. I hate it! I have no safe place left and I can't take it. My husband understands but right now there's not a lot we can do.

and the baby is so fussy I can't even relax when I get home. He just follows me around screaming.

Anyway, sorry, I am burned out.

no need to be sorry...you got pressures from the extremes of age...
old and young...

I'm guessing you survive in your imagination and right now are just way too crowded....to even fantasize!

...I can imagine for you...what will happen when you finally get some space...amazing!!

I'm sorry you're in a bad spot right now. You need some "Calgon, take me away", eh?

As for the writer's block, try this. Pretend it's your best friend that has this story stuck in her head but can't get it out. What advice would you give her?

When it happens to me, I just open a Word doc and put all my ideas down as bullet points. No structure, no order, no flow, nothing. This usually helps to get my mojo flowing. Then I let it sit and come back to it a little later and just focus on grouping like-ideas together. Then making complete sentences. Small steps in small portions. Before you know it, you're looking at something close to an actual article/story. lol. The baby steps really add up to a long walk in pretty short order.

Thanks.

I can see it in my mind. That's how I write. I see it like a movie playing in my head and I just write as I see it happening. So I see it going... I know exactly what's going to happen. Now, here's the issue... I see my characters moving their mouths, their expressions, but their words are all jumbled up and don't make sense. I see what's happening, but I can't get the words out to describe.... it plays over and over in my head like a loop? Like... a song stuck in your head. But instead of a song, it's images.

I'll try the outline idea.

If you have a sense for what's happening, even though you can't hear the words, try describing the scene to someone who can't see it. You're watching a play or a show with your blind friend. What would you tell her is happening, even though you can't hear the words?

Even though I can see what's happening I can't seem to get the words out to describe it. Sometimes I wish I had projector growing from my forehead. Then I could make movies instead...

I'm out of ideas

Let me know if you find a trick for getting around it. It happens to me alot lately. I've had to seriously cut back on my newspaper stuff because I just can't get the words out of my head...even if I have notes right in front of me, there are many times I just can't make a coherent story out of them.

Yes, this is it exactly!

I just want to scream. I'm in a screaming mood... scream and run....

I find that it's much more entertaining to scream and watch someone else run

((((((DHX)))))) So sorry the faecal matter has hit the ceiling oscillator Baby steps, 1 breath at a time. Also, I like the idea of you screaming and someone else doing the running... Hang in there sis

Someone else can run so long as on their way they gather up all their stuff to take with them. (This would be a specific someone... LOL)

Lmao!!! I hope specific someone finds the starting line sOOn