extremely bad

I don't know how to express what I am thinking in a logical enough way. I can't even understand it myself really. I don't want to sound crazy. I don't know what to say. I want to tell my husband and I want him to sit with me and just listen and then help me figure out what to do. But I'm scared I will just sound crazy and I am going in circles now so that's all

((((((dark heart))))))

Hope it calms down soon DH, this is an intense time all around. I spoke too soon about being able to control the electricity, I seem to have lost that ability.
I got really irritable yesterday with running late everywhere and bad traffic, and at gas station I tried to use a card and the machine froze ughh.. go talk to the guy he said I'll just have to try a different pump. Move car to new pump, I freeze that machine too. At this point I want to yell, but I don't, go back in to talk to the guy and heard something on his radio talking about evil spirits being responsible for something horrible that happened in Kentucky (sounds so crazy but really happened, unless I'm going to suddenly be hearing voices), then a car alarm started going off at another pump and the driver was near it and hadn't touched anything.

So now I'm worried it's starting again for me too. Thought I was past being afraid. I'm even afraid to do a search on this Kentucky thing, but I need to know if it means anything.

And then the horrible fear that maybe it's just me, insane. Ughh I'm so sorry, wish I had answers! But I have hugs and good thoughts of love and light surrounding you and yours.

dark_heart Paranoia sucks. Hope things mellow out for you very soon.

(I don't know much about electrical stuff, but have had spells of having to slap doorknobs before using them because of my somehow having way excessive static (oh, good grief, ain't that the truth...). Also, my grandmother couldn't wear watches because they wouldn't run right on her. Some stuff's just weird. But ok.)

Thanks. I am just worried about falling down the rabbit hole if you know what I mean.

I will look up that Kentucky thing, too. Sounds odd.

((((DH)))) That street light thing happens to me too. I thought I was just nuts, or that I was the only one that happens to. Nice to know I'm not alone.

some people just have very strong vibes.... which may cause weird things.

I searched it but can't substantiate any of it. What the radio guy was saying, I can't remember all of it except, evil spirits were responsible for the murders in Kentucky. :/ I'm afraid I imagined it, cuz I can't find any evidence to support that would have been talked about on the radio yesterday. I don't know how my head would even come up with that, I've never been to Kentucky. Maybe he was listening to a audio book and I overheard.

Also, last night my other laptop went on the fritz turning off and on, so I just closed it. Then my son was watching a documentary about salt, and how it's an important electrolyte and our bodies are pretty much electrical machines, lol. What the heck is going on...? I need to get some sage, smudge and meditate.

The thing about the watch, IZ, is really interesting. I've heard about that, some people make watches stop when they wear them, having to do with electrical field.

I don't make watches stop. I wore the same watch for five years just fine. Every day. Had to to learn to tell time, (issues with numbers.)

Really foggy right now. I want to look up the kentucky thing

Okay so here is one thing I have

I think I can make a psychic connection to my phone, or I need to try harder to. So I will be sitting and when I get really uncomfortable I should check it. I have to keep phone silent at work. so I can't tell when I get a text unless I check it. Sometimes I have psychic connection. I check just as text comes. Sometimes I have none, and miss importantness. So I need to be better. I need to connect to it better. Because, it's important. Like really important.

But I feel like this is not a good idea... that it's just my mind playing tricks.

Oh I looked up Kentucky and I don't find it either.

But maybe just that you heard it wrong. I hear things wrong all the time. My hearing can be a bit annoying sometimes. I think I have minor hearing loss. I used to carry a vacuum backpack when I was a custodian and it has a motor right by your head, not allowed to wear earphone things. So, little by little I notice problems more and more.

But easy to misunderstand the t.v. or radio.

Okay so, last night me and my husband were having a nice cuddle. As we were cuddling I decide this is a good time to talk to him. So I tell him how I've been feeling paranoid and try to give coherent example, and then also about the the phone thing. Then I also told him about the weird hallucination with the Santa and Snowman candy cane.

Well, he didn't take it bad. He teased me a bit but in a good way, like, to let me know it's okay. I know when he brings out humor that he's trying to comfort me.

So for now that's it. I know he doesn't really understand that type of stuff and I don't really expect him to. I take the comfort as the most important thing he can give me, I know there isn't any else he can do really, so I feel it went well.

He sounds great and cuddly, so glad you guys have each other.

Yea, the Kentucky crazy thing, idk what to say lol, I think it was my mind playing tricks. I suppose I should be grateful that I know that it probably wasn't "real".

About your phone, entirely possible you would feel it when somethings up with your family or kids, and a text comes in. Why do you have to have it on silent? Not even vibrate allowed, that's a bummer when you have kids you need to be able to check your phone. I guess they would call your office if there's an emergency?

We see patients so I can't have it on vibrate. Or even if it does by accident, I can't check it until they are taken back to their appointment. My phone is breaking, though. Digitizers are all dying. I got the lemon phone, that's my luck.

Usually the texts I sense aren't the important ones, those are the ones I miss.... >.> It's always the ones like, "Yeah," or stuff.

My husband is great. He is going to give me his phone and get a lesser phone until upgrade, because I love my phone (we have the same type,) but he barely uses his at all. But I use mine constantly. I am like lost without it.

Did you ever see the Saturday Night Live skits called the Menial Psychic? I think it was Christopher Walken and made me laugh so hard. He would be at work and stop people and have a vision and say dramatically, "Wait! I see you driving! You're on a road! You're ... at the grocery store and buying a frozen dinner."

I do actually have a vague memory of that! And, yes, I remember it being Christopher Walken, too!