[LadyShadow]

Stable today, like I said a bit more focused. Did some reading as to why bipolar affects women more than men and read some cool blogs on the subject. I suggest anyone fighting this illness like I am, read up on the subject! It makes you feel better to learn about what makes us feel this way

Was inert all day today. Not at all good. Just wanted to vaporize from directionlessness. Doing better now. Tonight BF said to "freshen up a bit (ha, tall order, I was one messy zombie!), we both need to get out for awhile". Back now and we're going to watch (on the computer) an episode of a series we like then get some sleep. Need the next couple of days to be very productive, no ifs ands or buts. Brain better cooperate.

(Lookin' great on the new avatar, PH! Reading is good. Can you reference the gender info? I'd be interested to read it.)

ugg.. i've so much stuff to catch up on here!

i didon't log in at all yesterday, and i feel way guilty about it- it's hard enough to keep up with this forum as it is without having to scroll through an extra day's posts

i'll watch emmerdale- then see about making some posts (i'm not going to look through all the posts from yesterday... and if people don't like it, then bleh)

[gary290]

Morning light led way to warm and open feelings about the day...about life. The pain of clinched jaws stemming from unwanted paranoia has subsided. A cheerful disposition has replaced the irritable mood of the former night. I feel good!

[üheksateist]

Really tired.

[Gretchen]

mixed episode day here (allllll dayyyyyy) ugh

[Gretchen]

Originally Posted by PlatinumHeart

I suggest anyone fighting this illness like I am, read up on the subject! It makes you feel better to learn about what makes us feel this way

Hi PlatinumHeart
I'm overwhelmed at even where to start first. I've been in and out of therapy my whole life but was just recently diagnosed biploar (went 10 years plus with no insurance). Every thing I read online just says the same stardard stuff. I've even gotten tired of clicking on links because they all say the same stuff. Any suggestions? I saw there was a book reading recommendation thread but I don't live in a safe environment have to books like that laying around.

[Clinte89]

Happy new year and I'm doing pretty good coming into 2013. I'm surprised I have not been majorly depressed or manic I guess these meds are working. Although I do feel I've lost my color what made me, me. But I'm trying to get that back slowly.

[Tehrein]

Joined the site today and made my first post.

[LadyShadow]

Originally Posted by Gretchen

Hi PlatinumHeart
I'm overwhelmed at even where to start first. I've been in and out of therapy my whole life but was just recently diagnosed biploar (went 10 years plus with no insurance). Every thing I read online just says the same stardard stuff. I've even gotten tired of clicking on links because they all say the same stuff. Any suggestions?

I will suggest a blog.

http://thesecretlifeofamanicdepressive.wordpress.com/

This may help you. It did for me. I don't know reading about her story really lifted my spirits yesterday. It may be useful to you.

[LadyShadow]

I am in mixed sorts today. My grandmother is not well. We lose grandparents all the time, because we know they are older and they will pass on. But this is different. She came to visit me in the mental hospital when no one else would. She stood by me when no one would. Now she is losing her mind. I am in such pain. So mixed up. Just wish I could help in some way.

played x box with my brother last night- and had a pillow fight (hahaha!)

now just sitting here eating grapes

[gary290]

Originally Posted by Tehrein

Joined the site today and made my first post.

Tehrein to PsychCentral! I hope you enjoy your time here.

Gary

[gary290]

Originally Posted by PlatinumHeart

I am in mixed sorts today. My grandmother is not well. We lose grandparents all the time, because we know they are older and they will pass on. But this is different. She came to visit me in the mental hospital when no one else would. She stood by me when no one would. Now she is losing her mind. I am in such pain. So mixed up. Just wish I could help in some way.

Hi PH, I'm sorry you're in pain. I wish I could help.

[roads]

Originally Posted by PlatinumHeart

I am in mixed sorts today. My grandmother is not well. We lose grandparents all the time, because we know they are older and they will pass on. But this is different. She came to visit me in the mental hospital when no one else would. She stood by me when no one would. Now she is losing her mind. I am in such pain. So mixed up. Just wish I could help in some way.

I've lost many loved ones to Alzheimer's, Parkinson's, and other dimensias. It's so heartbreaking, PH--no more so than to watch in one who has given you so much love.

People "go away" differently, but in my experience touch and sound were the last senses to lose meaning. Music seemed to communicate very late in awareness. Can you sing songs she loved? Or plays CDs of her music for her? Hospitals are very tolerant.

Try to fill your time with her with feelings and memories of all the love that is in your relationship. You can return to her now an atmosphere of the best you had together.
Roadie

[BipolaRNurse]

As a geriatric nurse, I've always believed that no matter how bad someone's dementia may be, a spark of the person they once were still burns within them, and that is the part of them that you can still speak to......and cherish. And somewhere deep inside, their spirit knows how much they are loved.

[Gretchen]

manic - hypersexual, which I hate because i'm an assault survivor but my twisted bipolar *** uses sex for my appetitite for self-injury

[hamster-bamster]

Doing fine and enjoying clear skin off Geodon, even though I forgot to apply Retin-A yesterday night. It used to be that I was punished for a single missed night, but not anymore.

[Little Moma]

Purple , a litttle fustrated, my son , who lives with Grandma lost two new christmas receipts and he is not happy he can not get his present exchanged and he spent all of his christmas money. I love him and my husband Matt.
I am happy sometimes I am financially helpless , do not like that . But God is a good God and He helps me get through the day and Love anyway. Please hug me.

[gary290]

Took the day off for my birthday. Watching Star Wars with the commentary on. Plan to watch episodes 4,5,6 in a marathon today. Maybe time for some Indiana Jones later in the day.

Trying to figure out if I should try another bipolar med of just stay where I'm at. Still have both depressive and manic mood swings. Rapid cycling too. Although feeling pretty good today.

If time is an illusion, then birthdays are really meaningless. We're all just here in the now. I see it as a day to thank my mom for giving me life. But I do enjoy that people are nice to me on my birthday.

DW made a nice lasagna for me today. No plans. . .just hanging out at home watching movies.

trying to find music I like. not much luck lately.

Originally Posted by landskaperdan

trying to find music I like. not much luck lately.

what sort of thing are you looking for?

perhaps i can help? (not the greatest at finding new artists myself, but you never know!)

[The Friend]

Not at all really!! We r hear to support one another its just not a sign in register!! We'd love to help, all we can if you want us to!!

Regards,
Hear from you soon?!
The Friend.

[bpinOk]

Feeling frustrated at myself, everytime I have a "good" day the next day just seems like I'm depressed for having a "good" day

[Clinte89]

Feeling a little mixed Like Im kinda down and kinda happy fell like I can laugh and cry at the same time. Its terrible this way, when yesterday I was fine perfectly normal human being.