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Old Jan 04, 2013, 11:38 AM
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this is the time to be perfectly lovingly creative and it's far from absurd!

he may have just found his perfect way of being with you
I know he was so troubled. He could not see how many people truly loved him.
He could not see how gifted and talented he was. He just could not seem to find his way. It is unbearable to think I will never hear his gentle voice again.
He made a little cat toy he cut out of the cat food box for the cats last night. He was brushing my Persian cat, this was less than a hour before he died. There were some tiny bits of cardboard left over from the toy. They have become a great treasure to me.
I don't think is it possible to live with the utter sorrow I feel.
I am his mother I want to die to make sure he is ok.
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Old Jan 04, 2013, 11:39 AM
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I'm so unbelievably sorry for your loss, I know in another post you talked about him, I will keep him and you and family in my thoughts and prayers. Once again I'm so sorry for your loss. Just stay safe and keep your family close. Hang in there.
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Old Jan 04, 2013, 11:47 AM
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I know he was so troubled. He could not see how many people truly loved him.
He could not see how gifted and talented he was. He just could not seem to find his way. It is unbearable to think I will never hear his gentle voice again.
He made a little cat toy he cut out of the cat food box for the cats last night. He was brushing my Persian cat, this was less than a hour before he died. There were some tiny bits of cardboard left over from the toy. They have become a great treasure to me.
I don't think is it possible to live with the utter sorrow I feel.
I am his mother I want to die to make sure he is ok.
Jason didn't intend to leave you loving parent
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Jason didn't want to leave you he didn't know what he was doing ...

Jason didn't know ?...he just did what he felt ..

Jason is still with you..

he made a mistake...he made a mistake

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Old Jan 04, 2013, 11:58 AM
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So sorry for your loss. Such losses are unimaginable to those who remain. I will keep you in my prayers.
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Old Jan 04, 2013, 12:08 PM
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Praying for Jason now. Hold on to his memories, but live for him please. Keep posting here whatever you are feeling, keep doing what you're doing....stay with us, we are listening.
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Old Jan 04, 2013, 01:20 PM
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Jason didn't intend to leave you loving parent
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Jason didn't want to leave you he didn't know what he was doing ...

Jason didn't know ?...he just did what he felt ..

Jason is still with you..

he made a mistake...he made a mistake
This is 100% true.

I also believe that he wouldn't want you to end your own life for his mistake. I didn't know him, but, even though he was lost in life, I don't think he wants that for you.
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Old Jan 04, 2013, 01:36 PM
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Old Jan 04, 2013, 02:10 PM
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Old Jan 04, 2013, 02:35 PM
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I am sorry for your loss. Hold on. <3
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Old Jan 04, 2013, 02:50 PM
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Please accept my condolences, from a stranger. Your sad news is tragic and I'm sending you my thoughts and prayers. R. I. P. Jason
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Old Jan 04, 2013, 03:50 PM
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I have to be strong right now for my husband. He is so distraught. Jason's friends keep coming over, he had many people who loved him. Two of his friends actually lived with us for a while. The are torn apart. I am like their second Mom. They need me, too. We are going to give him a great send off. They planing is keeping me sane.
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Old Jan 04, 2013, 04:00 PM
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I'm weeping for your hurt right now Speed... I can't find words.... just tears...

Today is 1 year anniversary of my friend Susan's son's Jerod's death by accidental heroin overdose. He was under 30 as well. I am pulling myself out of my depression today to try to be there for her. I wish we all could be with you and hug you and keep you safe.

I fear this scenario with my 17 yr old son... addiction is the nightmare that has ruled my life with my son for 5 years now. I would be thinking same things, how to keep living, my baby boy, my honey. Please keep posting and even get our phone #'s if you need to talk or text. Please just take a minute at a time, we are here for you. I will be praying, angels surround you.
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Old Jan 04, 2013, 04:09 PM
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Words cannot convey how sorry I am for your tragic loss. I can't even imagine what you're going through. All I can do is pray that your boy has found a place of light and peace, and that you and your family will know the loving arms of God are around you, even though you may not feel them. Bless you all.
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Old Jan 04, 2013, 04:17 PM
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I am so sorry for your loss Your Son Jason will always be with you.
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Old Jan 04, 2013, 04:37 PM
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I am so terribly sorry for the loss of your son. I understand the want to be with him, I felt that too when I lost a family member but it is not your time now to join him. Please talk about the pain with us, a T, or whoever helps you. This song is one I found comforting during the time after my loss -


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Old Jan 04, 2013, 05:08 PM
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Oh my God! (((((( Speed3 ))))))) I am so sorry for your loss, to lose a son, your child, I'm sorry, this is awful. I'm here if you need an ear, please be safe.
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Old Jan 04, 2013, 05:23 PM
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I'm sorry to hear of your loss at this time. There is no way one can comprehend the pain that you're feeling at this time. I offer to you my condolences and prayers for you to have peace, comfort during this time.
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Old Jan 04, 2013, 06:35 PM
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I am speechless...thinking of you and your family with love. I am so sorry for this news. Please keep me in mind if I can be of help. My blessings to you.

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Old Jan 04, 2013, 06:52 PM
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I am so sorry for your loss! Please stay safe. It sounds like there are people around who know and love you
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Old Jan 04, 2013, 09:07 PM
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I am so sorry for you loss. I pray that you and your family feel the warmth, love and comfort of Gods embrace.
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Old Jan 04, 2013, 09:24 PM
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Old Jan 04, 2013, 09:49 PM
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I am praying for Jason, you and your husband, your family and Jason's friends as hard as I can. With deepest sympathy.
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Old Jan 04, 2013, 10:21 PM
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I'm so very sorry and I know how bad you are hurting. Please take gentle care and keep reaching out, we are here for you, you are not alone....
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Old Jan 04, 2013, 11:05 PM
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