My Son Jason Died Last Night of a Drug Overdose

THe online site is www.msbfh.com

I lit another candle, the first one didn't show up where I used my real name, plus I was using my phone internet. Hope I did it right this time.

For those trying to get to the online candle lighting - go to website above, choose online obituaries, then Jason's name, then the Light a Candle option will show up.

It's really nice they offer that, very beautiful to read everything about him.

I am so sorry for your loss. I have a son myself who is my whole world, I can't imagine what I would do if something were to happen to him. I pray for you to find your way through the pain and loss and find a way to go on. Blaming yourself is natural, but it's not your fault, you cannot see the future and know what is going to happen. Our children make their own choices and mistakes, we are not to blame for that past a certain point. I will pray for you that you find some peace in your good memories of your child.

Just as there are no words that can describe your pain, there are also no words that can describe the empathy I feel for you. Though I have lost some close to me, I have never lost a child and can't bring myself to imagine what that must be like.

A few years ago, only three months after a very painful divorce, I lost my father. Struggling with BiPolar depression only magnified the pain. There was no amount of medication that could help. I had to do something and it caused me to entirely shift the way I thought. I realized that the only person that lived in my head was me, therefore the only thoughts that mattered were mine. The emotions, including the incredible pain I felt were being driven by my thoughts. So it became imperative that I changed my thoughts. It would be impossible to go from that devastating place to feeling somewhat normal again if I hadn't. I began to look for things to be grateful for. Being a nurse and having the privilege of taking care of him at the end was at the top of my list. Getting closer to him, telling him how much I loved him, looking back at all the lessons he taught me... were just a few. Sometimes I had to go over that list every five minutes, but it felt better when I did. Sometimes, even four years later, I still have to go over that list and it still feels better. Like with your son, that hole will never be filled, but I can go on and that's what he would have wanted.

My prayers and most positive intentions are with you.

James

I'm here to talk to you....
if you want

This is 100% true.

I also believe that he wouldn't want you to end your own life for his mistake. I didn't know him, but, even though he was lost in life, I don't think he wants that for you.

My heart aches for you. I lost my son Paul in 02.
Please be gentle with yourself....