bits of mania bits of nothing bits of the inbetween

ever get emotionally disturbed?

...not like disturbed!.....gets a bad rap that word...it's just 'mixed up'...thats all it means.....it's not 'shattered!'

ever get mentally ruined?

...not like ruined!...gets a bad rap that word...it's just 'damaged significantly'....thats all it means....it's not 'destroyed!'

ever get personally dysfunctional?

...not like dysfunctional!...gets a bad rap that word...it's just 'mismanaged a bit'...thats all it means...it's not 'hopeless!'

ever get utterly troubled?

...not like troubled!...gets a bad rap that word...it's just 'complicated inside'...thats all it means...it's not 'embarrassing!'


ever get it all at once and then none of it and then got fingertips grasping one side of reality and poor toes clinging to the other side and it's so far down!

yep

You are fab DM! You create magic with the words you string together and somehow those words make me feel better. Thanks for sharing your words.

you are very welcome Peggy...T ...and thankyou

...the alphabet collided miracles just for you this time



..and why not hey?...

That makes more sense than you know DM!

I have battling this mania for days now. Where its like let me do this, but no let me do that, but hey maybe I should do this, and no lemme do that!

I have all these things I could be doing but I don't want to do anything, but at the same time I want to do something!

Thanks for sharing your words, making perfect sense to me!

Yea... I do feel close to that edge right now. I am very troubled, I hate that disturbed word but suppose it's somewhat accurate.

..yeah I know...PH...who are we today? and what moments will we really understand?...

so much guessing and it's like we are actors without a damn script...but some silly fool managed to edit out all the best bits sometimes it hurts so much to not have a brain that works right ...

and the sparks fly inside the skull for no reasons beyond the cerebral mechanics completely unknown to us all and so there is no blame and even more no name!

it's gonna be ok

...wanna talk Blue..?

You are so articulate with words! Yeah man you nailed it right on the head. I feel like I am an actor in my own movie and the shyt is as boring as hell! Then when I get it right and do something, I have to move on to something else. I think we need to throw out the script! Try something else! But what, god only knows what.

Thanks for the support DM, it is much appreciated........

awesome kind...PH

you are welcome...anytime!

that you get what I say...well?

that makes me feel something secure!

thankyou

Are u here James? I feel better when ur near.

..I'm here C

mentally ruined
off astray
not what it should be
not today

scavengering through the ruins
of my mental decay
I find that I'm at home
with this wreckage in which I play

cuz it is me
and no one else
I am safe among the wreckage
I am safe among the wreckage

the darkness can be soothing
cuz it is what I know
I pretend sometimes and act real cheerful
putting on a show

You're very gifted and amazing. Your words seem to camouflage a lot of turmoil though to which we can all relate. Thanks so much for sharing your talents and creativity.

i'm a silent storm
alone in the sky
no one can know
i cry and i cry