work today is an impending doom.
I feel desperate to get out of it....
It's stupid I know...
but I can't be that person today...
not today....

I need time to be me

and it's not me at work

it's who I have to be...
who I need to be....
not the real me....
the real me is scared and hiding...
i don't know why...
but he is...
and now I have to be that someone else again...
and I can't do it today.....
the closeer it gets to the time to go....
the more desperate I feel....

I hope things improve for you today

[faerie_moon_x]

I'm with you. I'm not good for work a lot recently....

[BlueInanna]

I feel ya... might just "work from home" today. I wish you could do that too....

I was thinking about how we feel like different people in different situations. I was wondering a lot recently, am I a fake? Do I act fake for different people or situations? After a lot of thought, I came to conclusion that NO... it's not being fake. I wear different hats, I have to. I'm a mom. I'm a business owner. I'm a boss. I'm a creative sensitive person. I am a woman with desires. There are these different areas that require different things from me. And I have a right to my privacy, and who I show what part of myself to.

It was a previous convo with you Dan that had me thinking about all this. And I like the conclusion I've come to.

You do need "YouTime" and Mondays can really slap us in the face with that. It's like you work all week, then you get your weekend, but it's monopolized by family and house duties... ughhh... You have to do what is best for your sanity. Take a mental health day, where you can be alone in the house and decompress. This way, there's a bigger chance we'll make it to work tomorrow. Personally, this is personal business, not anyone needs to know your reasons for needing and taking this space. Having privacy is ok.