whoa-cycles

My T might be talking out of her bum, but today she wanted me to think about looking at larger issues, since I get caught up in spirals, duh; when I make a mistake or disappoint myself.

I think she almost said minutia, but she knows I'd have socked her

Like maybe start looking at BP as a seperate entitiy? The cycles like a whrilwind I'm caught up in instead of a malignancy within that no one inside there knows how to treat? May some of my mistakes realy can be caused by the BP?

I think she wants me to be able to forgive myself more than minimize my being responsible for my actions?

Does this make any sense at all? Sometimes the woman covers so much crap in sesion that I lose the whole point.

it makes sense to me.

not saying that applies to you, just saying I understand what she was saying

Thanks, Dan, but I have plenty of minutia myself...

Have you done anything like this in therapy? Like maybe....I donno

dissasociation from the bp....
forgiveness as opposed to coping techniques like minimizing and internalizing everything....
Yeah. I've been through this in therapy before.

Do you have a way to consistently put some of the little things aside? Like check off that you solved or dealt with each of them, so they can be let go, or do you just know that you should?

hmmmmm...

I find ways to make peace with them. I am constantly affirming myself that I am good enough and I'm constantly trying to find the perspective that fits whatever situation I am in.

a lot of times I can let go of little things if I have positive affirmation from others. Especially here, sometimes all I need is for someone to tell me it's okay.

other times I need to hyperfocus on it until I am satisfied.

but the things that I can not let go flare up my GAD and I get all messed up over them. until someone tells me that it's okay.

so I guess I rely on others to affirm me and show me that it's okay before i can let go of things, but it's what works for me. the other times I can find the right perspective... aka rationalizing.... and the rest just drives me mad

It's okay, Dan...