who am I. I don't know.

I'm not willing to find out at the expense of those around me. I know who I want to be, and I am working to be that person.

That isn't wrong, is it. To put all of my energy and effort into being who I know I should be and who I want to be....

versus the not so cool person that I know I am?

I was doing so good too. Just read the post about sensitive people. the truth is in there.

[avlady]

why do you have to be Cool? Be the person you are as you said,

not trying to be cool. just a good person. I should have never started this thread. It was out of figuring out who I was. like I said, it's all in the sensitive people thread.

do I come across as trying to be cool? I am only asking genuinly

I finally admitted who I was in that thread. underneath it all I am not who people think I am. I am rather cold hearted, cruel and manipulative. that is who I am and that is why I am always running and hiding.

I fight this everyday and I am trying like hell to be a good person. But... I also admitted that I was fake. fake cuz I try and help and be a good person but knowing who I really am.

I admitted this to myself this morning. I had to face up to it. I am really devastated right now, but i also know that I would rather be devastated over something that is true than feel this way about something that is not true.

I am not looking for attention.

just sharing what I have known, but not able to admit, till now.

I have to go to work now... knowing what I just admitted.

I may be oversensitive, and have been for a while...

but oh well... at least i got the truth out there, right?

[faerie_moon_x]

You should work to be the person you want to be, yes that is true. You should grow and become the person you feel is a good person for you and your family.

However, you should do it so that you're true to yourself. They should be changes you want to make because you want to make them, not because someone is telling you that you should do that. Changing to meet someone else's perception of the perfect you only leads to resentment and destruction. Learning your destructive behaviors and how to resolve them into positive behaviors is key.

[Clinte89]

Work on who you want to be like you said you dont have to be a different person just have different actions and that will make you into who you want to be. Hang in there dan you can do it.