Wanting to savor the euphoria?

Does anyone else experience this? As a result of some life stressors (positive ones, mostly related to living abroad! ) I have been experiencing a bit of mood instability lately. Most of the time I am pretty high, but every now and then I'll get really irritable or I'll crash into an almost depressive state.

Yesterday, I saw my therapist and we talked about things that I could do to help stabilize my mood. I was eager to try out all the suggestions that she had, because I was not feeling so well during my session, was terrified that I was relapsing, and wanted to feel better.

About an hour after my session, my mood began to climb. It peaked last night around 10 PM but has remained pretty high ever since. Now, I'm not so sure if I want a "stable" mood, because this feels so good.

The past few weeks have marked what may be my most pronounced hypo/mania to date. My therapist has demanded that I meet the school psychiatrist so that if things go badly and my meds need to be tweaked, I'd already have a relationship with her. I'm debating whether I should tell her how high I am most of the time, for fear that she'll try to chemically reign me in. I can't give up this good feeling! If I was experiencing a depression of half this magnitude, I would be begging for a med change, for anything that would bring me back to "stability".

I also have been doing things to try and strengthen this feeling of euphoria and unstoppability. I've been drinking more caffeine, not censoring my thoughts, listening to upbeat music, etc.

Who else celebrates when they get hypo/manic? And purposefully trys to maintain it?

*raises a glass of champagne* Here's to hypomania and all the lovely people who experience it!

I do exctly that try to keep it going at all costs. I drink caffine I listen to loud upbeat music try to keep moving do all those things because it feels to good. I know what you mean exactly. I would say see the doc but understand why you dont cause it feels so good.

#raisesglass#
I'm really 'passionate' about taking full advantage of the upswing, and indulge in caffeines, chocolates, hyper music, plus the act of hyperactively enjoying it, to drag it out. I mostly go by instinct, so don't have a set game plan for mood elongation, you're not aone....

For the last month, I've been a steady as a rock---haven't been this stable in years. And yet, when I think about the coming spring and summer, with warming breezes and the sun shining on my face, I can feel the rush of euphoria wanting to erupt in all its glorious hues, and I want it so badly I can almost taste it.

I conveniently forget about the ugly part---when the hypo/mania turns on me. When I shop compulsively and buy hideous things I will never wear or use, when the irritability gets so intense that I can't hide it, when I become so agitated and restless that I literally want to crawl out of my skin. All I think of is the high.....I love the feeling of invincibility and the confidence that EVERYTHING is possible.

I always try to "maintain" it. When I get aggressive my husband puts a sleeping med in my pills and I pass out.