[JaydedLayde]

Hi. I'm afraid to go to sleep because I wake up after only a few hours of sleep, screaming and/or crying. Sometimes it was a nightmare and other times I can't remember anything. Either way, I'm too shaken to go back to sleep so I'm getting, on average 2-2 1/2 hours of sleep a night. That, alone, is taking a huge toll.

I can't concentrate. It's taken 34 minutes just to write this much. My head hurts all of the time but I can keep it at a pain level of 4-5 by taking 4 Excedrin Migraine every four hours. I can barely communicate verbally because I either can't find the right words or I know what I want/need to say but I can't get it to come out. It's so frustrating that sometimes I just sit and cry.

I constantly feel like my mind is going to snap and this is the last minute I'll ever be sane and it terrifies me. I'm lost. I'm scared. I'm confused. My husband and my best friend look at me like I've grown two heads every time I try to tell them how I'm feeling. They say they love me. They say they want to help. They say "Just tell us what you need so we can help" but, when I do tell them what I need, nothing happens and nothing changes.

I feel trapped, like everything is closing in on me. I'm screaming for help but no one can hear me. Sometimes it takes everything I have not to jump up out of my chair and go screaming out into the night. I can't do this and I can't take this any more. I...I just don't know what to do, where to go, or where to turn and I'm so very, very, tired of this life.

[usbusi]

Definately sounds like you should talk to a doctor Jaydedlayde.

[Victoria'smom]

That's how I get with migraines. You may want to look into it. I would go to the ER.

[InfiniteSadness]

I ask myself the same ******* question everyday!!! **** life.. Sad thing is ill probably be just as miserable there as i am at home, wonderful life, aint it

[sugahorse1]

The hospital really is a safe place where you can get help. Go rather sooner than later and improve the quality of your life over time.

[Mollie May]

I think if it's impacting your life so much, it's time to seek help. Sleep is so important to mental health...and to bipolar in particular. If you can't sleep enough, things will likely only get worse, and you could end up in a full-blown manic or depressive episode. Sounds like now might be the time to go to the professionals. Good luck.

If you can't see yourself hanging in there, and when you feel that you have exhausted all of your options, then it's time to go in. When you feel cornered in this life with no way out. It's when self harm seems like no big deal. When death is merely an inconvienience... then it's time to go in.

I'm soooo sorry that this is happening to you! You will get through this!

In my view, those who are advising you to get to a hospital are right. There you will get the bloodwork, effective doctor-prescribed medication, and referral to a specialist who will be your real help. I know loved ones mean well, but they are not
able to assist with your symptoms. You need professional help to find out what's wrong and how to correct it.

Please go to the hospital and get relief for your symptoms.

Originally Posted by landskaperdan

If you can't see yourself hanging in there, and when you feel that you have exhausted all of your options, then it's time to go in. When you feel cornered in this life with no way out. It's when self harm seems like no big deal. When death is merely an inconvienience... then it's time to go in.

I'm soooo sorry that this is happening to you! You will get through this!

i would agree with this post- i think it depends on a number of things when you go.

your support network

your meds

how things are going in general

good luck..

[Darth Bane]

you are going to lose too much weight if you keep on sleeping 2-3 hours per day... yes hospital will be the better choice... you could tell your hubby/best friend that you want to go to hospital .... then they will call and you don't have to call yourself they will arrange everything !