insecurity

...a shape within my clothes I notice the absence of such!

...a shape within who knows I notice the absence of such!

...massive nakedness beyond undressed! personally repressed!

so freaking depressed!

nobody knows me sees me hears me I want to destroy these that hurt my absence so much to enhance their existence!

kill my moods to revive the ones that died already....so that they can evolve once again into the death I already experienced.

....and the questions??

shitfight questions!

let me be the calamity I understand!...

see I'm freaking overwhelmed huh?

ain't that obvious....

((((( dubblem )))) I hate to see you suffering like this.

Calm yourself down. Even 1 minute is good. Learn to put breaks in this over whelming storms of emotion.

Ask yourself if you are in control, not the question am I losing control?. Tell yourself, "good, I am still in control. I have to freedom to will. I am born with it. Therefore I will suffer bravely because there is a meaning in this suffering." This can be your little break.

I encourage you to try it.

...no probs...

not tryin' to pull a pity party here...

it's just real feelings turning into real words..

I don't post here for comfort...

I post here because I'm likely insane miserable sad and undeniably eccentric!

I post here to share my experience of mental illness

I post here to demonstrate that peculiarity is a vast expanse of typical bewilderment but also a very comfy and cool thing!

I could not write this unless I was a human....

and I consider myself at the bottom of the human pile...

and thats just gotta be ok

An acceptably good attitude.