Doubt I'll come back from pdoc...

Due to resent swing, and non-compliance I'll be surprised if pdoc lets me leave the building tomorrow. If I can be honest with him. I could be just paranoid but we'll see. If I do get kept I'll have my husband update you guys. Hope to see you tomorrow.


MM

Good luck, MM. I hope you feel better soon.

Good luck Im sure your pdoc wont be to suprised and keep you, people do that all the time. So i guess it depends on your doc though. Best of luck. Hope to hear from you again soon.

good luck- i hope it goes well..

hope you get the help you need...

migs...

Good luck. You never know. I just got sent home from the ER.

Okay, I made it home. I was really late but he of course was able to see me. I didn't lie but left out the whole agitated to the point of being vaguely violent. He's kept me on the same meds and told me if I'm more likely to take it at night, ED complication, then do that. Then I had my session science lesson about the human connectome project. I have to call T tomorrow for a sooner appointment and more frequent appointments until my next pdoc appointment in 6 weeks. He gave me his other office # and told me to call there if I need anything. He also got my meds approved through insurance so if I'm ever out or out of town I can call for a refill on the med line. It was a lot less scary, and he was a lot more flexible then I thought he'd be. He did however take my weight, so not cool. He let me think I'd get away with just telling him. I guess he wanted to know what I thought it was before taking it. I always forget how reasonable he is. Now lets hope T is just as reasonable even with her having all the info.

I'm glad it went well. I tend to forget that people can be reasonable too, because so many people in my life have not been.

Glad it went well and you didnt get locked away.

Just stay safe

I'll be safe, I just worry pdoc or T over reacting when I'm honest. Especially since I'm raising my son. I've seen family members have over-reacting pdocs/T and I never want to be hospitalized.

Awesome! Glad it went well!!

I'm glad it went well for you!

Why are you against being hospitalized? Its not so bad Ive been 5 times over the past year and each time I got a little better and better. I used to end up there every two months and now its been 4 months! So keep that as an option its not so bad.

I think though, Clint, when you have a small child at home, they start looking at you and if maybe you're not "fit" to have a child if you are in the hospital. I actually feel the same way. I may have a bipolar Dx, but staying out of the hospital kind of says "stable," (also not having a lot of recorded episodes.) Maybe this is paranoia but at the same time it's not. Because, in this day an age, there are a lot of people running around thinking what a parent "should" be, but in the end if there is no abuse or harm to the child, there should be no stigma that one parent may require to be hospitalized. But there is....

Oh yeah that makes sense. I didnt think about that. Well Im glad you got what you needed to take care of yourself.

I watched my sister be placed in MH hospital for 6 months when I was younger, for non-compliants. I have control issues and ED with hospitalization is really scary. Plus I worry I'll never get out.

I have been told that we are excellent parents by almost everyone we encounter. Including all our T & pdoc. We've been told we should adopt children to help them. We've had people sign over their rights so we can take help their child succeed in school. We do everything in our power to give our son a happy, stress free life so he can grow up happy and healthy. We already messed him up genetically we don't need to add environmental triggers but I'm a wreck on paper.

Warning messed up things said below please no harsh judgments.

I already have a lot of "strikes" against me for raising my son (2 bp parents, poor, SN child, co-morbid issues, my struggle accepting I'm a parent (not a baby-sitter), homeschooling and month(s) long stay with family when needed) add to that my well known violent,destructive thoughts & tendencies, psychosis and not always being on top of chores. I really don't need hospitalizations added to my record.

There are tons of parents that don't seek mental help because of fear their child/ren will be taken from them. It because states have parental termination laws like: