Should I move after all?

I'm supposed to be moving Back home to FL after my son gets out of school for the summer, to be closer to my father and the rest of my family, who say they want to help me. I can't seem to find a job here, even tho I'm on disability, I don't have enough money to pay all the bills. But this place is all my son has ever known, and I have a boyfriend here that my father doesn't know about because he would disapprove. The bf is my ex, who I used to live with, and things didn't work out. We've seen each other off and on throughout the whole time I've lived here, we just can't live together. We have problems occasionally because of my bipolar, the mood changes make him think I'm seeing someone else and so does the side effects of the meds, (not interested in sex), but other than that, we now get along well most of the time. He has learned to deal with me differently than he used to, and our relationship works much better. He expects that we will grow old together, and I have done nothing to discourage this idea. I can't imagine life without him, and my son says he can't, either. I haven't mentioned the idea of moving to him, and I don't think he will take it well at all. Plus, what if I get to FL and still can't get a job bc I haven't worked in 4 years? I don't have the most stable work history. I'm a good worker when I have a job, it's getting and keeping one that's a problem. My record is a year and a half before I end up quitting. My stepmother says that's why I can't get one now, bc of the gap in my work history. Things are more expensive there, and I'm sure my father isn't going to want to pay my bills until I find something. Here, I sort or have a small support system, and I have a good p-doc and everything. But dad says it would be better for me and my son there. What should I do? I already told him I was coming, and told my son we were.

This is a tough question.

Have you and your boyfriend been to a couples therapist who knows bipolar? Maybe if he hears from a "doctor" about your issues he will better except them. I know people tend to believe authority better than the person who actually lives with the issues.

Plus, why would it be better there in FL? If you have good doctor, a good support system where you are.... it may not be a good idea to leave that.

It's a hard question to answer. I see why you're having trouble with it.

Most can't work on disability. Look into low income housing (particularly section 8) in both area's. Whichever you get into first re-visit the idea of moving in a year when you have housing and other things under control. I can help in both area's if you pm me.