i really do think its mixed episode

I'm still struggling. Horrible anxiety, irritability, etc.

I'm talking to my therapist today to see about getting into the state clinic.

Maybe I am on too much zoloft. Until the lamictal get in my system I am willing to take an AP. I cannot stand this feeling anymore. I tried calling all over yesterday to find a pdoc that will take medicaid. No luck. Have to go to state clinic.

You are a survivor. Keep on trying.

Keep on trying. And keep your head up. I'm sure you'll get help you need soon at least hope you.

I'm really trying to hang on. Talked to therapist. She is putting in for an emergency appointment. In so scared they will take me off doxepin and put me on seroquel again.

My son won't leave me alone. He can be so abusive at times. I have no place for him to go. This is just awful. He's 17,and I have no support from his so called father. My sister won't let him go to her house.

What do I do?

Had a long talk with my boy. I feel so bad that he has to deal with me and my moods. He does really try and understand. I love him so much and just want to be stable. I need to do it for him if nothing else. He deserves it.

This is really tough.