[purple1992]

Well outta no where I will feel very happy and excited to do things like have lots of plans and ideas and than outta no where I will get bored of it or I just wont go and do it.
I talk very quickly sometimes, also get annoyed of things or people very easly, I also am very tired alot of the time, I mean i did see a sycologyst but he only said i have part of border line personality disorder and my family thinks I have something else. right now i am on citolapram , quetiapine fumarate I am taking a half a pill of that quetiapine fumarate it just doesnt seem to be helping me I will feel dark and sad or mad outta no where and not care about anyones feelings until I see that I have hurt them than I will start crying and saying I am sorry and say that I dont get why I did that or outta no where someone will be just talking to me and I will start crying, or if someone gets me really upset outta the littelest thing I will pick up something and throw it and yell or I will end up punching the wall and messing up my hand, but right now its just starting to get worse my niece was sleeping in my bed a fell asleep with the popsickle and it melted all over my sheets and blanket and pillows so I freaked out I couldnt control it I wripped the blanket and sheets off and threw them off than I started yelling and my mom came in and yelled at me saying my niece had school the next day I was like I really dont f***ing care and than I dont know I juse couldnt control myself my stepdad came downstairs and was like whats going on and all I remember is me saying heyyyy wanna watch me cut myself and I had scissors in my hands and than he took my dog and shook his head and I dont know i musta just snapped outta it cause i threw the scissors and than my auntie came in my room and held me while i was crying and couldnt breath barely thats how much i was crying but after that I felt soo bad I went and said sorry to everyone in the house. So yes I do get suicidle toughts lately but I havnt done it I just feel like that sometimes you know like noone would care if I was gone. I also seem to forget things alot lately like my boyfriend does not like it at all or me or my sister or mom will get at it cause they will say I just f***ing told you and than sometimes I will be like uhmm no you didnt and than we will keep fighting or most of the time im crying. Also I can not keep a job or get a job since I graduated school cause if I do get a job I will either be too slow and than my boss will tell me or the co workers will tell me and I will start crying or I will start freaking out.

Hi purple, and welcome. All the stuff you wrote about certainly does seem totally consistent with Borderline, as your psychologist suggested. I don't see anything outside of the Borderline umbrella, but of course I am not a professional. I have a dear friend that deals with these things, and have seen that it is very hard for him. (So I've read a bunch to better understand.) Have you ever heard of DBT? It was specifically created to help people with Borderline to deal with things better. I've also read that there is thought of changing the name to Emotional Regulation Disorder. From what I've seen, it is a more appropriate name, for the feelings are so intense and hard to control. My friend gets quite distraught and frustrated with himself because of not being better able to control the power his emotions have over him and how they negatively impact his ability to deal with things. DBT is all about understanding interactions and the thought patterns that lead to one's reactions and learning approaches and techniques to help one better navigate. Others can better elaborate. I cannot speak from personal experience, because I do not have Borderline and have not done DBT. I can only speak from what I have heard from others. Many have said they found it useful. There are many on PC that will be able to relate to your experience (there is also a forum that is specially for folks dealing with Borderline -- have you checked it out?). It can be good just knowing one is not alone. Wishing you luck.

[purple1992]

Originally Posted by Innerzone

Hi purple, and welcome. All the stuff you wrote about certainly does seem totally consistent with Borderline, as your psychologist suggested. I don't see anything outside of the Borderline umbrella, but of course I am not a professional. I have a dear friend that deals with these things, and have seen that it is very hard for him. (So I've read a bunch to better understand.) Have you ever heard of DBT? It was specifically created to help people with Borderline to deal with things better. I've also read that there is thought of changing the name to Emotional Regulation Disorder. From what I've seen, it is a more appropriate name, for the feelings are so intense and hard to control. My friend gets quite distraught and frustrated with himself because of not being better able to control the power his emotions have over him and how they negatively impact his ability to deal with things. DBT is all about understanding interactions and the thought patterns that lead to one's reactions and learning approaches and techniques to help one better navigate. Others can better elaborate. I cannot speak from personal experience, because I do not have Borderline and have not done DBT. I can only speak from what I have heard from others. Many have said they found it useful. There are many on PC that will be able to relate to your experience (there is also a forum that is specially for folks dealing with Borderline -- have you checked it out?). It can be good just knowing one is not alone. Wishing you luck.

Thanks so much innerzone im liking some people on
here so thanks for the tips I am going to look into DTB
and see how it can help me and what not thanks very much
tho I hope you are having a good day yourself

[Victoria'smom]

I would go see another pdoc to get re-evaluated.