[krisakira]

Lately i have been feeling like there is a shadow figure in my bedroom and its presence is making itself known to me more and more, and i am slowly realizing it is real. It raped me in my sleep a few days ago and that scared me a lot but now it tells me to self harm and that if i don't then others will get hurt instead. It always looks at me and I am an atheist so I don't believe in spiritual things like demons but i cant explain this shadow figure i used to call demon but now i think shadow is a better term. I see the shadow visually however in my head is a clearer image of what he looks like so I painted him 5 times but I'm too scared to show the pictures with anyone. But after i painted i felt a little better to get that out, however now he is scaring me again < i think I will get tapped on the back by him or that he will come out and grab me, and I m getting really scared like is this really happening? why me, why is it here and why cant i just believe it is not real and it go away, please help i don't see T till friday and I have never had this happen before

[BlueInanna]

Sent my type blessing and protection. He gets off on ur fear, regardless he is not allowed to return to your space, blast him with white light (thought) if he appears. Burning sage / smudge your house if possible. Gentle hugs Krisa.

[extremebipolar1]

Well my advice, I would go see a medium. If you were closer I could recommend someone...my Aunt...she's AMAZING. I know your atheist, but cleanse the room first and the rest of your house for sure. It may help relieve why this spirit is haunting u. I would love to see your paintings. The pics may give you more answers to what and why. Hope it helps. I personally would cleanse and pray, but we all are different and have our own beliefs.

[Victoria'smom]

Have you tried destroying the paintings. When it says to hurt yourself draw or paint it and hurt the painting instead.

[Secretum]

Have you mentioned this to your pdoc or therapist? The shadow figure could be a hallucination. If that is the case, antipsychotics will probably make it go away.

Take care.

[venusss]

Crystals, candles, intense... and gently, but assertivelly ask it to leave. It usually works.

Ghosts are actually very real phenomenon (i dealt with few that more people saw/acknowledged). But harly you are powerless over them.

[UCMATH]

You should probably go to a pdoc.

[krisakira]

I saw my pdoc and T and they both say I am in a depressive episode with psychotic features

[BlueInanna]

So how are you doing now? Did they give you meds or anything to help? I hope so...

[krisakira]

I am supposed to increase the dose of my fanapt which is an antipsychotic med, we will see how it goes, but i don't know how a creature can just disappear cause I take a pill, what do they want from me

[BlueInanna]

Would you feel safe enough asking it what it wants? Assertively, not invitingly...

[venusss]

Kris... do you have some friends who are sensitive to this stuff who could confirm if they see/feel it?

Most these things cannot hurt you anyways (bodily harm... psychological harm is... much more complicated).

[extremebipolar1]

Krisa, how are you doing? Just wondering if things are getting any better for ya.....