I'm finally at that point in life, where I can look it straight in the eye and say, "I don't give a ****!" Don't know if this is a good point to be in, but I have the confidence to be there. and without being hypo! Don't know if this is something that I need to work on or not. I'm thinking that I'm not the best person, but I can finally say that I don't have to be.

A little confused if I should be this way......

but it sure feels good!

[faerie_moon_x]

It's always good to strive to be a good person. But at the same time you have to be able to forgive yourself for errors and things like that. Also, no one is perfect. Trying to reach perfection in all things will only lead to disappointment because its impossible.

As long as your flaws are not things that harm yourself or others, it's okay to embrace them.

[cool09]

What exactly don't you give a sh- about? Socializing, your functioning, what people thing about you, work, rejection, etc.?

It is very true that life is a game whether we like it or not and if you don't have game you become an outsider, open yourself to rejection and/or criticism, etc. And people with hardcore mental illnesses are ignored for the most part.

Alan Watts (Professor, Eastern Philosopher) explains exactly why Western Culture is a game and why we become alienated with ourselves from day one. And the concept of "Self" turns into a complicated game of "Hide and Seek" and the "True Self" becomes difficult to achieve because we are forced to play a part in this Drama called Life. (The Hindu religion is based on the fact that life is a drama and the True Self becomes lost.) Just something to think about. No preaching. Watts is a very good speaker and he unravels obstacles that prevent us from achieving who we really are inside.

All of these Western ideas and mentality piled on top of mental illness virtually cripples a person, imo. So don't put all of the blame on yourself.