Meds making me feel crazier than usual...

Hey all,

I just recently went on back to prescription meds after 2 years without them. Apparently, after two hospitalizations, the docs were quite sure that my med free method wasn't good enough

However, I now feel less in control of my mood swings than usual. When I'm manic, holymolyIamsomanicIcan'tstoptalkingcrazyfastanddancing and when I'm depressed, instant tears. And the changes are a lot faster- I can go from one side of the spectrum to the other in a split second. I was always very easily triggered, but these days, I'm walking on eggshells around myself.

Overall, my baseline mood is way higher and my anxiety, thanks to very heavy dosing, is basically nonexistent. But, I feel really out of control and couldn't even tell you what my own triggers are.

I'm thinking it may just be because I haven't reached therapeutic levels yet (they started me on really low doses because I fall victims to ALL the side effects) but, has anybody else experienced this problem or something similar? It's really scary. I'm not a fan.

And yes, I will talk to my pdoc about it at my appt on the 12th

Thanks for reading. Just needed a little support on this issue.

Hi BeeKeeper, just to let you know I read your post. My antidepressant gave me a few weeks like that except I was manic once or twice on two separate days. It was the lows that were hard. Finally mood swings became less intense at my current dose Wellbutrin 150mg twice a day.

Thanks Optimize! I'm hoping that it's just because I'm building up the meds, but dang, it is miserable.

Yes.

So your doctors are convinced, are you? Were you hospitalized against your will or did you just give in to pleas to have you go and empty threats to make you go? If you're not convinced on medication thats making you feel worse and the hospitalizations were the latter and therefore entirely voluntary, is it worth it?

Is it worth weeks if not months of feeling worse just to avoid a natural mood episode?

What are you taking?

Cocoabeans- most recently, I checked myself in once, then, a few weeks later, was put on a 72 hour hold after a scary ER visit. I sought help for myself because I wasn't functioning, but my docs know I'm terrified of meds, so they're being cautious.
I'm willing to try the meds because I was so unwilling to use them until now and it really wasn't working.
I know that my mood is better on the meds then off, but it's really hard to find the right combo because the side effect get so freaking bad. For example, the had me on a half dose of Lexapro and it made me so nauseated I couldn't function. Five freaking milligrams, and I was useless.

Odee- I'm on cymbalta, lamictel, and buspar right now. The buspar is the newest, and, even though it kills almost all my anxiety, I also feel nuttier now that I'm taking it.

Maybe you can look into supplemental and diet changes to help the side effects?

Or ask for the least toxic/weakest versions of meds because of the sensitivity? Or look to a gastrointestinal to find out if you are sensitive to acids? Or try the lemon trick that genetic posted after you take mess. The lemons turn into a base when they get in your stomach.

I'll have to look up the lemon trick- thanks!
pdoc has already established I can't take any SSRIs because of the nausea, can't take anti- nausea meds because they give me anxiety attacks, and can't have benzos to deal with the anxiety because I don't trust myself with them...
Meds are fun.

I hope we'll sort it out eventually. In the meantime, my mom is making me stay with her instead of at my own place (since I live alone) so she can keep an eye on me. She's a therapist, so I'm basically in a DBT session 24/7