[BreAmora]

So, lately I have been off my medication, because my doctor is a butt about refilling them for me. I have a boyfriend and I love him very much, but I'm afraid I am going to scare him off or push him away.. I don't know if its normal to have the thoughts and feelings I have, but I don't think so.. I was watching a video about relationships with bipolar from a therapist and the way she described how a bipolar diagnosed person acts, is exactly how I am. I KNOW I am bipolar, I've been living with it since I was a young kid. Anyway, I saw people with bipolar have a scaringly high divorce rate and my mom, whom is also bipolar, is absolutely horrible with her marriage, like psycho at times to her husband. Anyway, here is an example of my thoughts.. He still has a friendship with his baby's mom, which is good for the kids to keep contact, but she has pictures of them kissing on facebook, still. I was looking at her facebook and she said a quote about 'you're a joke, we are laughing at you.' And since then, I have it in my head it's a huge set up, which sounds unreal because he has done a lot of things for me (came to meet my family 6 hours away, fixed my car, always comes to sees me, tried to buy me an iPhone, etc) we've been dating for 4 months, I know it's short, but love at first sight. idk. I just keep thinking they're playing a joke on me and he is still with her behind my back.. He doesn't do anything, but SHE does. I asked her if they had something going on nd she said no, but it seems like she still really wants him.. Am I crazy ?! Someone please help me out, I need someone to talk to. it's killing me.

[Travelinglady]

I would be suspicious of the ex, if I were you. She might be playing the game, trying to scare you off. I'd try to stay away from her, in every way possible.

Yes, it's tough to be with a bipolar. I hope your meds get dealt with soon.

Does he know your diagnosis? It would help. If he really cares for you, then maybe he would be willing to read about it.

But if he doesn't stay with you, then try to think of it as for the best. His ex sounds like a real trip. She could be a continuing problem, methinks.

I would encourage you to talk to your therapist about this situation.

[hamster-bamster]

Read Relationships & Communication - Forums at Psych Central in detail and you will see a lot of stories just like yours and reactions that are just like yours, so there is nothing specifically bipolar, or, using your general term, "crazy", in your reaction.

PLEASE!!!!! Use the default font in your future posts!

[ultramar]

I was watching a video about relationships with bipolar from a therapist and the way she described how a bipolar diagnosed person acts,

There is no one specific way that a person with Bipolar Disorder acts in relationships.

Anyway, I saw people with bipolar have a scaringly high divorce rate and my mom, whom is also bipolar, is absolutely horrible with her marriage, like psycho at times to her husband.

So people with bipolar disorder (as you say, like your mother) are "absolutely horrible" with their marriages and "psycho" at times with their husbands?

Maybe you could read up on Bipolar Disorder so you can get a more informed, nuanced understanding of it.

I KNOW I have bipolar

Do you 'know' this or have you been diagnosed with it? If you're concerned about it, maybe you should see a psychiatrist for feedback.

Your feelings about your relationship sound normal, not 'crazy.' I'd seek help on the Relationships and Communication forum as has been suggested.

[Darth Bane]

i think you are overthinking this.... those kind of jokes happen in movies not in real life.... you wont push him away.... bipolar is not that bad there are lows but still you are kind of in control of what you are doing.... you wont scare him away if you decided to never do that..

[Odee]

Was medication helping you? To me the issue here seems to be that of your untreated symptoms potentially harming your relationship, but your doctor was poor at giving you prescriptions. A doctor has a responsibility to keep up on the treatment that you need.